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Caren

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  1. I met a really nice lady at the school which my children attend and we went for coffee in October last year, just a couple of months after my dad's diagnosis. We seemed to strike up a really great friendship and felt at ease in each other's company right from the start.

    She was a great source of strength for me during my dad's illness and then shortly before he passed her Grandmother became ill and so we kind of just carried each other along through this. Her Grandmother passed away and I held her while she cried and was here when she needed me and then just a few short weeks later my dad passed and she was there to lend me her shoulder.

    Just four weeks after her Grandmother's passing she found out that her Grandfather (who had been primary caregiver) had been admitted to hospital suffering with stomach pains.

    On the 29th of July '09 (exactly a year to the day that my dad spat up blood, leading to his diagnosis) her Grandfather, Don, was diagnosed with Advanced Cancer of the Throat, Gullet and Stomach and told that there were no treatments available to him.

    He passed away, peacefully, last night (exactly 3 months to the day that I lost my dad).

    I can't believe that on meeting this lady, Clare, we have been through so much hardship together. I wonder if this is a test of our strength in life and friendship.

    I cried when I got the news about her Grandfather, although I had only met him twice. He was such a great man and after caring for his wife, who had many ailments over the years, he deserved just a little time here to enjoy life but it wasn't to be.

    I am just hoping that this is the last time we have to grieve together for a long time to come.

  2. Oh Susan

    I am so pleased that your mum is home and starting to feel better. The reduction in dosage sounds like a plan that could work :)

    It's great to know that you got to go and spend the weekend with your mum!!

  3. My husband is a bit of a night owl and so most nights I find myself climbing into bed alone.

    This is fine..it has always been this way and so I'm used to that. What I am not used to is lying there and thinking about how our day went or things that need to be done the following day and such and then snuggling down and closing my eyes and then the first thing I see, on closing them (most nights), is my dad's face as he left this earth.

    God that hurts so bad to see that. I really wished that I could see his face but not at that moment.

    It takes a while for me to get over that and drift into sleep.

  4. Hi Michelle

    My dad was also on Carbo/Gemzar and only had one full cycle of a planned four. This was due to his counts dropping too low too fast. He needed a transfusion and on top of this he caught an infection and spent 7 days in hospital. The Oncologist wasn't happy with this and stopped treatment.

  5. Susan (((HUGS)))

    I am so glad that your boss is kind enough to arrange a well needed visit with your mum for you.

    I hope that you can put aside the feeling of being scared and manage to spend some wonderful quality time with your mum this weekend and I also hope that she starts to feel better and get stronger again soon.

  6. As you all know my dad lived in the house with us for his last two years of life and so he played a huge part in my three childrens' lives.

    They all cried hard and talked about him often for the first two or three weeks of his passing but then as time went on they slowly stopped crying and talking so much about him. I don't mind this as they are children and they are just being 'children'. I wouldn't expect them to still be consumed by grief almost three months after his passing.

    Periodically they will talk of him and say that they miss him or they will remember something that he would say or do and they will laugh about it, which is great.

    Yesterday my In-laws were coming to visit and stay over for the night (they live 250 miles away). The girls were becoming more and more excited as the day went on and then I went upstairs and found my eldest daughter (14) having a cry. I asked why she was crying and she said that while thinking about Nanny and Granddad coming to visit she had started to think more about Granddad Dave and how much she really misses him. Then last night my youngest daughter mentioned Granddad and she too had a little cry.

    I think it's good for them to get on with their lives and not grieve but at the same time I don't think it hurts them to cry every once in a while.

    I think that seeing Granddad Harry made the realisation of never seeing Granddad Dave again hit them harder :(

    I just held them both and let them sob telling them that I love them and it's ok to be sad.

    I didn't know what else to do.

  7. I am sure that your mum is smiling down on your and very proud of the way you are living your life.

    It's so nice that your dad has someone to be with who understands and respects that he still grieves the lady whom he spent many years with. She must be a very special lady and maybe your mum sent her as a gift to watch over you all.

    Can I just add that looking at your Avatar, your mum really was a very beautiful woman!!

  8. Today marks one year since my dad received his diagnosis. 4 months ago I was really looking forward to this day and being able to come here and tell everyone that he was a one year survivor, now it's hard to believe that he has been gone for almost three months :(

  9. Carleen

    I am so sorry to hear that you are still struggling so much now. Have you spoken with a grief counselor, I know that you may have done so soon after losing Keith but have you spoken to one recently?

    I wish I knew what to say to make things easier for you but I really don't.

    All I can do is offer you a huge (((HUG))) and hope that the sun appears from behind those clouds for you soon.

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