A BIG hug and thank you to those who responded to my cry for help. Robert has been taking Magic Mouthwash, however it doesn't seem to be doing much for him at this time. I can't tell you what stage his cancer is in because he has told the doctor he does not want to know what stage and how much time he has left. He wants to be as positive as he can. However what I can tell you is it has spread from his right lung to his liver, to his shoulder bone, a few ribs, and a few vertebrae. This to me sounds like a death sentence. I try to be upbeat at home, but when I am at work, or just in my car alone I can't stop crying. Even when asked by friends, how is he, I can't even finish telling them without breaking down. He receives Carboplatin, Irinotecan, every Monday for 3 weeks, with an off week the fourth. He has also agreed to be in this clinical trial where he takes Sutent, which is used in kidney cancer. He doesn't know how to feel about being in a clinical trial, but states he will do anything to get better. I, on the other hand don't know how to feel about this. All I know is I want the doctors to do whatever it takes to help him. He has only received two week of chemo before he had to be admitted back to the hospital for rectal bleeding, low platelets, and low sodium level. I have on hand ice cream, juice pops, jello, pudding, apple sauce, ensure, carnation instant breakfast, milk, buttermilk and soup, but he still is unable to eat. I get so disgusted, not at him, just at what and how this has changed our lives. Anybody please tell me it will get better.
