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My heart and prayers go out to all of you. I thank everyone for their kindness and advice. I wish I could give all of you a great big hug. I pray that God lifts some of this pain that I know we all have to go through. Most of all I am looking forward to the day that I will see my husband again.

It has been 8 months since my husband passed away from lung cancer. I can't believe I have made it for 8 months without him. Some nights I wake up and think he is still in the hospital and he will be home soon. He was going to have his lung removed and then I was going to take care of him. I never had the chance to say good-bye. Never once did I think that he would not be returning home with me. He had part of his lung removed 3 years ago and then he came home, I took good care of him and he returned to work! I would give the world to hold him just one more time. This New Years Eve we would have celebrated our 20th wedding anniversity. I don't see this pain ever leaving me. I have never been so alone in my entire life. I did not realize how much I really loved him until it was too late. I have so many regrets. Regrets that I did not appreciate him enough while he was with me. I feel that I took him for granite. Does anyone else feel like I do?

My husband had lung cancer 3 years ago this month. He had part of his lung removed and he has been great. He had no chemo or radiation. He is now 67 years old. We went to the doctor last week and we were told that his lung now has 2 "spots". The doctor said he does not know if this is "old" cancer or "new" cancer. I know I should have asked questions but I was in such shock I could not do anything. He is scheduled for a pet scan in the morning. I am terrified. I don't know what to say to him. My best friend who helped me through this horrible ordeal 3 years ago, has passed away 18 months ago with lung cancer. I am so lost and so scared. I can't imagine how my husband of 18 years feel.