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I've taken a very long break since I last visited this site....various reasons, but a post on fb today reminded me I needed to check in and share my story since so many were seeming to need to hear stories of hope. So....here I am, still here nearly 8 years after diagnosis, and though I am living with COPD and having to adjust my lifestyle to that reality, it's still a blessing that I'm still here to be able to bounce my new grandson on my knee
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I'm sorry mets were found.....I'll be continuing to keep him in my prayers and hope they can help him get some relief from pain. Please continue to keep us updated on how he is doing
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Sending good thoughts for a clean scan!
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I'm joining the others with hopes that your mom will be here for you to make many more memories with, and that her SOB doesn't worsen and no other issues surface. You and your family have had to deal with so very much. Sending hugs to you and to them......
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I keep seeing from new posters that they come to this forum for hope and maybe some cheering up when they are feeling that their worlds have spun out of control, so I'm posting my story so others can see it IS possible to survive this disease.
The basics of my story are in my signature, but details are:
I had no symptoms whatsoever - my cancer was found entirely by accident when I got a respiratory infection (had gotten these easily all my life) and my doc ordered a chest x-ray. Suspicious spot showed up on the upper right lobe, looked about an inch or so on the films. Had a cat scan and then a needle biopsy to confirm - NSCLC adenocarcinoma.
Ordered me to surgeon immediately, who got my hospital records and asked me as we looked at them why I hadn't done anything about the "spot" exactly one year before when I had a previous respiratory infection and chest xray. My reply - Nobody told me there was a problem. In fact, my doc's office had missed it entirely and called to say all my tests were fine, I just had your standard resp infection. Wow. What do you do with THAT kind of information, when you know something might have been caught a whole year earlier? It sure messes with your head.... would it have made a difference? Who can know?
Went for the mediastinoscopy to check for lymph node involvement - none indicated by that procedure, so scheduled surgery to remove upper right lobe. This was looking fairly ok, maybe early stage and no treatment other than surgery might be needed?
Bummer. Once inside, had to remove middle right lobe, as well as the top, plus a bunch of ugly looking lymph nodes, but had to stop messing with one sitting right on top of my pulmonary artery, since if that were nicked, end of story..... so, now radiation and chemo were definitely in my future and it seemed I was being re-staged every time I turned around, and getting progessively worse news each time.
Decided since I had world class Mayo Clinic in my backyard, so to speak (2 hours south in Phx area) I'd put myself in their hands. My oncologist there was wonderful beyond description. Suggestion: make sure you really like and trust your oncologist - it makes SUCH a difference as you or your loved one goes through this awful time.
Scheduled radiation 5 days a week and chemo once a week, for 6 weeks. I was SO lucky - my blood work was phenomenal, white counts stayed virtually normal until the very last treatment, when I had my first neulasta treatment. I lost my hair, but the wig was better than my own hair, or at least easier! Very little nausea at all - the worst part of chemo for me was sitting there for several hours while it dripped in!
Radiation was more of a challenge for me. They were targeting the very center of my chest, that pulmonary window, and my esophagus got terribly burned. After a while I couldn't eat much of anything - it simply hurt too much. They did give me a magic "potion" to help with this - it did numb the esophagus, but as soon as I ate or drank anything, that effect was erased. Needless to say, appetite went WAY down, probably as a result of the chemo together with radiation pain. Eventually I couldn't even drink water without crying in pain, and that's when I decided it was enough for me. I completed 27 of the 30 scheduled radiation treatments, and though they would have preferred me to complete the last 3, they respected my decision. I was down 40 pounds by that time, but then, I could afford to lose it!
So, that completed treatment and we came home to begin regular CAT and PET scans, at first every 3 months, then every 4 - 5, and now as I begin the last year before reaching the 5 year all clear mark, we're just doing a chest xray every 6 months. At my last visit, my oncologist was jubilant - he said the best advice he could give me was to wear my seatbelt, since everything else was doing so great!
I should add that my original oncologist, who was with me through all of treatment and beyond, left to do research into this disease, which though I hated to lose him as my doc, I was so glad someone of his caliber would be doing. I didn't care for my next assigned onc, so I requested another, and HIM, I love! Again, having the right doc makes all the difference in your attitude, so keep looking until you find the right one for you!
So, on this roller coaster ride I began by thinking we might just cut out the "bad" parts and be done with it, 1a maybe! but as most of us learn, it's rarely quite that easy with this disease.....and I was restaged at every step until it ended up 3a or possibly 3b - they were never entirely sure if it had crossed the window to the left side so we just blasted away and hoped, and so far, it's done the trick.
I know how very lucky I am - and I also know I had an enormous support system, with so many prayers and good thoughts being sent on my behalf that it just felt like I "floated" through it on a pillow of good vibrations. I also didn't focus on it - I viewed it as a temporary detour on my life road as much as was possible, and I think by not making it the complete focus of my thoughts, I didn't give it power, if that makes any sense. Not denial, since you can't deny it when you're going through this, but refusing to give it any more power over me or my thoughts than absolutely necessary. I also had an incredible support in my husband, who kept things as normal for me as possible, God bless him. So... though 4 years ago I had to face the possibility that I might not live to see my daughter find love, have a family, etc., now I can say I was there to walk her down the aisle 18 months ago, and now she is 4 months pregnant with my first grandchild, and I can only be so grateful that I'm here to share these milestones.
I hope that others find some strength in reading this story, and that there will be many others blessed as I have been to come through this battle this far and still be here, living full lives and sharing time with their loved ones, which is all that really matters in the end, isn't it? I always welcome questions or any way I might be able to share something that might help, so don't hesitate to email me if there's some way I can assist or just to listen. Blessings to you,
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Thanks so much for the so warm welcome back - this board has always been full of the most positive wonderful people! I wasn't sure about returning, but you all have made it clear it was the right decision. I'm delighted to know my story CAN give some hope to others at all different stages of fighting the beast.
I did find my old login info with the specifics of my journey, so I pasted it into my signature. I couldn't remember the details, which I took as a sign of either putting it behind me and thinking about good things, or evidence of chemo brain, or both! But having located it, I added it, so others can see if it tracks with their own experiences.
Thanks again to you all - it's good to be back - you're wonderful folks! I'll be posting whenever I can, and sending good thoughts always to all those involved in this fight!
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See signature - think staging eventually ended up 3a/b with lymph node involvement
called a halt to radiation after 27 of 30 planned - burned esophagus
chemo was carboplatin/taxol - 6 rounds 1 x weekly - very few issues - counts stayed great, very little nausea, energy good
live in AZ, USA
Holler if any other info I can share.....
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I'm a returning "poster" after taking a 3 year hiatus. I visited this site a lot for the first year or so after diagnosis and treatment, but after my cancer "buddy" -(longtimers from LCSC will remember Beth from VA), lost her battle while I continued doing so well, I had either survivors guilt or just couldn't take bad news for awhile. I let it go too long before returning to check in on others whose journeys I followed, though often quietly. It was too easy to put it in the past, maybe.
A friend's recent diagnosis brought me up short and though I have tried to help others facing cancer that I know personally, her current battle reminded me that I owe it not only to her, but to others I may NOT know personally, to say it IS possible to beat back the beast. I got myself reactivated and am here just to say that after 4 years NED for me, maybe someone will read this and feel a bit of hope, anyway.
I would include my staging info but it seemed to change on a regular basis as I went through treatment. I can tell you that yes, I did have lymph node involvement including some in the "window" in the center, and one cancerous node sitting right on the pulmonary artery that surgically was too risky to attempt, thus the radiation. I tolerated 27of the 30 treatments, and it apparently did the trick, along with the weekly chemo for 6 weeks. All scans since have been completely clear - my oncologist is jubilant!
I don't know if there is a "5 year all clear" you're considered "cured" like you hear about with other types of cancer - maybe someone out there can tell me that, but I am doing scans only every 6 months now and don't know how long he plans to continue that. There comes a point where continuing to radiate the chest becomes possibly not worth the risk, I would think.
Anyhow, glad to be back - glad to see many familiar names are still kicking, and sorry to see so many have had to find this site, but still oh so grateful that it's here for people to share and gain some hope and shared experiences. I'm sorry it took me so long......
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Hi Lorna, I really don't have answers for you, since my experience has been so different from that of your husband, but I at least wanted to say I'm glad you found this site. You will find so much support and empathy here, from so many others going through similar things, and it helps just knowing you're not alone. I'm sure someone with more suggestions than I have will post a reply very soon, but I just wanted to say hello and welcome, though we all look forward to the day when we don't have to welcome anyone here ever again, because lung cancer will be a thing of the past
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WAHOOOOOOOO! You have truly made my day, knowing that we both got such wonderful news and can breathe a little easier! I was afraid to check on the board for fear of what I might find for you, but this is terrific and I'm sending prayers of thanks for both of us. BLESS YOU, BETH!!!!!!
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Thanks to you all for all the good wishes and happiness for me! You are all such giving people and your generosity of spirit truly humbles me. I know how blessed I am and I will be turning my prayers and wishes for good things outward to all of you for the same good results. Thanks, again
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Well the news could not be better with my tests today....ct scan (also with barium, Beth, YUCK!) all clear, cea test <0.5 (or too small to measure), blood tests all excellent! They are so pleased that they have moved me to a little longer period between scans, so now I can relax and not think about tests again til the end of summer! I am so grateful, and wanted to share happy news! But I find I'm so concerned about Beth and her scan that I cant really concentrate tonight. I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers for the same good results for your tests, Beth!
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Hi Beth, I'm so sorry to hear about the ups and downs (ok, mostly downs) of your roller coaster ride this week. I can't understand why they can't give you any answers about your SOB/wheezing if the scan ruled out PE or problems in the lung lining. I'm also not clear on why you have to have another separate scan tomorrow? Maybe I missed something.
I will be traveling down to Mayo myself dark early tomorrow morning for blood work, ct scan and then afternoon appt with my oncologist. We're of course hoping for another 3 months of a good report. I'm amazed at how fast that 3 months between scans goes by - it seems like I just DID this pre-scan anxiety build-up and here it's time again. I will be thinking of you all day, praying for good results for both of us, my friend. Please try to take it as easy on yourself as is possible. I'm so sorry you are having such a terrible time. Sending good thoughts,
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My sincere sympathy on the loss of your father. My daughter is 28 and I often think about what a devastating thing it would be for her to lose a parent at this age. I can tell you and your dad shared a wonderful relationship and I hope that gives you some peace during this difficult time. I'm sending prayers to you and your family.
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Hi Beth, I was relieved to see you back on here...I can imagine you can't possibly reply to all those who are posting and pming you - there are so many people concerned and caring for you! Hopefully with that many sending you good thoughts you will bounce back and beat that nasty throat stuff but good! Still sending prayers and healing thoughts to you constantly...that Alimta will be the ticket to your beating this once and for all!
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I'm late, too, but let me add my congratulations and happy dance to everyone else's! This is truly wonderful news and I'm so happy for you!
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Much of the time I lurk about and commiserate quietly or smile in appreciation of the humor and support from so many on this board, but I've noticed how supportive and positive you always are for so many, so I wanted to add my best wishes and prayers for Lucie, and for you, too. You are always so wonderful and compassionate to others, and I send the same to you.
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Don, I''m adding my hopes and prayers for surgery to be an option for you, and will be waiting to hear the updates as you get more info.
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Oh Beth, I just don't know what to say. All the way through it seems like you've had to battle so much harder than others, only to be hit harder again. Nothing about this disease is fair, but somehow it seems even more unfair for you. I wish there were something I could do to help -you know I think very highly of my onc at the Mayo Clinic and certainly would recommend their facility. I know they have one in Florida and the original one in Minnesota which I suppose are closer for you, but others are recommending excellent facilities, too. It will be hard to even know how to make those decisions but so many on this board are here to offer whatever help we can, and you know that includes me. If there is ANYTHING in the way of research or help in whatever way you need, PLEASE don't hesitate for a second to ask for it. We will all do whatever we can for you. I'm praying so hard for you, my friend.
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Hello friend! I was really hoping to hear better news, even gall bladder or SOMETHING they could pin down to at least identify what the cause of your pain is. I hate it when they say they give up - it makes you feel like they think it's all in your head or something similarly dumb
Is it your pcp ordering the Cat scan Thursday or something your onc wants? I hope your insurance company is still taking care of you - it scares me to read a post like the one on here who said the ins company isn't wanting to pay for her mom's hospitalization because they didn't find out what was wrong. Is that CRAZY or what? Because the medical experts can't find out what's wrong they want the patient to pay for it? It just leaves you shaking your head...
Anyhow, I hope you're finding some relief from the pain, and I agree with others who have said don't give up - MAKE them get to the bottom of it and find out what's causing pain strong enough to require a pain pill. Sending you healing thoughts....
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I'm adding my sincere sympathy on the loss of your beloved dad. May the healing thoughts that so many are sending to you help in some small way during this difficult time.
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My sister booked a celebratory 4 day Mexican cruise for her, myself and my daughter that was about 4 weeks out from the date I finished chemo and radiation. It DID give me something to look forward to, and I enjoyed it a lot, BUT, I'm glad we took lots of photos, because I was still not "back to normal" and I frankly have kind of blurry memories of much of it. And, my stamina was still not back much at that point. In retrospect I think it would have been better if we'd waited a little longer after I completed treatment and I would have been able to participate (& remember) a lot more! So I'd say definitely take the trip if at all possible - it was a tremendous "reward" for completing treatment! Best wishes - I hope you all have a wonderful time
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I know i'm late with this, but I, too, am sending all the positive thoughts and prayers for good test results - it's so hard to wait but with all our positive warm and healing thoughts going into the universe you can count on tons of support from everyone here.
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I will be waiting with bated breath to hear when you have results (though I KNOW they will be great!) In the meantime, I hope you have a terrific weekend - you're certainly due one. How much snow did you end up with?
Eight years NED coming up soon!
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