curlysue50 Posted September 27, 2012 Share Posted September 27, 2012 I feel kind of "normal" sometimes. But, I am sort of afraid to let myself feel that way. Does that make any sense? I posted this in the Just for Fun forum yesterday, but it got my thinking. Katie posted this in response: I've heard this before and I've felt it to a smaller degree with my own cancer and then with other struggles...normal things feel familiar and that's kind of scary...because are you getting "back" to normal or are you lulling yourself into a security that really isn't so secure? because life changes on a dime...For me it felt like a limbo between the old normal that I missed and the new one I was trying to get used to....and odd place to sit in..... I say throw normal out the window and dress up like someone else completely I have spent some time in the last year, living life frantically as if it were going to end tomorrow. And then I have spent other time totally paralyzed because I was not sure anything I did would be meaningful. Or if it would even matter. And now I am getting some forward movement. Cleaning out closets without giving away everything. Getting a pool membership and committing to going 2-3 times a week. Getting and staying involved with LCSC to be there to support others with lung cancer or loved ones with lung cancer who are trying to figure out what their lives will be like. I can never be "Susan without cancer" again. I am learning to be "Susan with cancer". Where cancer is not the only thing that defines me. I was wondering how others, especially those with late stage cancer have dealt with this issue. Not living your life in denial, but not living at a frantic pace so that you miss some of the sloooooow stuff that makes life so enjoyable. Thoughts on this? Susan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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