[Keith Alan Kubesch my soulmate, my lover, my friend]

Carleen,

I come here every single day, yet never post,

its just too hard, as I am in the midst of what you had. I am so sorry for your loss, many prayers coming for you.

Mary

[Cookbook clearance sale ends May 9!!!---Update: Amt raised]

Andrea,

Sent ya money, let me know if ya got it. Cant wait to get it, I love to cook! Mary

[Can we adopt a theme song?]

my own personal choice would be bette midler, you are my hero!

[Question for Caregivers?]

wow, thats a really loaded question.

I feel lost

I feel I am doing a really great thing!.

I feel i dont have my own life

I feel lucky he is still here

I feel good when the tests are good

I have a hard timr going to work when they are bad

I feel bad when I know its not long to go

And worst, Iknow its not long enough~

Mary

[Lucie Update 01/18]

Hi Don and Lucie,

My husband is currently on alimta, side effects

are not too bad. Tired, normal fatigue, the steriods

to counter act did the most damage.(sleeplessness).

But all in all, tolerable. Good luck to you! Mary

[CONGRATULATIONS: PITTSBURGH FANS !!!]

TWO WORDS, PITTSUBURG RULES!

What happened to Manning? He must have taken the Bus

out of town.

[Ugh, I spoke too soon.....]

My husband is on this drug, and its ugly, we are trying sooo hard to stay on top, hang in there! Mary

[Ruby Ellen Brannum]

Heather,

I do not know you, but I have read your posts, Sooo

very sorry for your loss! Mary

[I've Learned That...............]

I have learned that, I thought everything was as it should be, and we were doing everything that needed to be done was done as it should be, then all hell broke loose, and my life changed, as did my husbands did, and now this big black beast has shown his face, and I hate my life, only because the person I love the most in life, who has always sheltered me from everything, is fighting the battle of his life,

how sad! But We do keep trying to be optimistic!

Thats my take, sorry, Mary

[Bill's father is at peace w/ Obituary]

so very sorry, my prayers are there!

[cindi o'h update /coming clean with you.]

cindi,

My personal friend at the very early hour.

I had no idea that you lost your cat, Iam so so sorry, Iam not a cat fan, but I am abig animal fan!

So very sorry, my friend, animals are so helpfull, if I were near you, I would find the dearest kitty for you right now.Look for one, and it might just be right there for you, Best to ya

Mary

[New Research for Treatments]

sounds encouraging!

[Side effects with alimta]

my husband is about to do this drug, what is your feedback? Mary

[Alimta ?]

Hi kasey, northumberland county here, Sunbury RD the city, Hi cindy, yes still way too early on the am wake up, have to do, what I have to do.Still thinking of ya on a daily basis!!!! Mary

[Alimta ?]

My husband starts on this (new) drug next week, Ive been reading and researching this fairly new way to fight nsclc. Any one else have any feed back for me?

thanks in advance! Mary

[Disability & NSCLC]

My husband is stage IV, was way too sick from Chemo

to work, was on unimployment for about six months, when we applied we were approved on the first try.

Hope this helps!

[Okay, I am IN!]

Cindi,

Thinking of you, wishing you the best! Mary

[been here three months, time for me to open up!]

omg thank you sooo much, for that responce!!! It takes a stranger, to give me some hope, cause i dont get it from my family, so sad, no one want to talk about it! mary

[been here three months, time for me to open up!]

Ok----- been here since October, time to open my mouth and learn. Havent filled out all the necessary info yet, cause not sure of all ( he tries to keep me unnformed). My husband was dx as of October of 04 with stage IV ncslc . I know its bad, he keeps me in the dark. 2 weeks on and one week off, chemo, i do know its not operative, i do not know how really bad it is, he is very sick, he is one 10 days of shots, cause his white count cell is bad.

He is sick a lot of the time, and I try, when I come home from work to see that he eats, what I can get in him. I have to be at work, as we own a home, thank god, he got the insurance on the home, and on his mostly new truck. I feel like I hve been thrust into a big black hole, as he has always worked very hard all his life, and now things are bleak, Since Iam so in the dark, do you suggest that I request a special app. with the cancer center? I need to know, thanks in advance. Mary