On Monday, my father after a 4 month battle with Stage IV NSCLC was told that they could not continue treatment. He is weak, tired, and frail.
I'm scared to go on with my own life, I'm a student who is going to grad school 2 days a week and am petrified of leaving my father with a HHA.
They will start hospice next week, but does that mean he has to die? I mean I could be optimistic. I have accepted the possibility of death...
The big problem started about a month ago, when he just wasn't himself. He was confused, etc, didn't want to eat. Finally he is eating, but I think my anxiety and stress has carried to him and he is being affected by it. I lose it sometimes and yell at him, because i'm the only caregiver...is this normal?
*sigh..
Is it possible to feel alone when surrounded by hundreds?