It's just that I've been worried about this for so long. Like five years ago, I was convinced my mom had cancer because of the products she uses and I told her and she said<' No, don't be silly. I try to buy things that have very little ammonia and I try not to inhale them." But I mean, unless she'd holding her breath while she after she sprays everything, she's syill inhaling the products. Then for a while, I was convinced that I'd been wrong and this girl in my school had her mother die of lung cancer and I thought, "I'm so luky I was wrong."
But then today when I heard this, I thought that there is no way it can't be cancer. I feel like I've known this forever and it's finally showing itself.
I always get ahead of myself with my mom, because she's the most important person in my life. Without her, I'd feel all alone. Like I thought she had colon cancer for a bunch of reasons, but then the doctor saw the shadow while doing the test for the colon and had my mom do the x-ray. If my mom had to get cancer I wish it would've been colon cancer.
I feel like I'd be too lucky if I was wrong again.