[Mum is in hospital.....UPDATE, not good.]

Jana and Karen,

I'm sorry that things aren't going well. Still hoping for an upturn,

Dee

[finished chemo]

Congratulations Don, I hope that this is the end of it all for you.

Dee

[Kasey's DH, first time posting]

Well Fred, a very warm welcome to you. Kasey is like everyone's favourite and is really special to me - she was the first to reply to my first post. I don't think anyone read her story without crying.

Hope to see more of you.

Dee

[Feeling blue]

I know I said on another thread that I wouldn't be around for a while but I feel like that's not helping much either. If this post is wildly inappropriate (in either content, the forum or both) then I'm sure someone will tell me and I won't do it again.

I feel really,really down. The horrible injuries of a friend's husband in yesterday's bombings is probably the catalyst but it's not everything. I feel bad because I don't feel worse about that. My friend, Louise, is a university friend. We were very close then but that was years ago. Since then we have kept in touch by cards on special occasions, the odd e-mail and phone call. We only ever see each other now when someone gets married and I have only met her husband four times. I don't even really get on with him to be honest. I am obviously devastated for her but I feel so guilty because I don't personally feel affected.

The thing is, and I really really hope I don't offend anyone with this, I am waiting for Claire to die. Her odds of never having a recurrence are low. I am so scared. I feel my life has changed forever and I resent that. I know how selfish that is but it's the truth. I sometimes can't think about her and deliberately block it out because it's too painful. The simple fact is that some people mean more to you than others.

This post is going nowhere. I'm sure everything will OK again soon. Sorry.

Dee

[Too much pain]

Wishing you luck for tomorrow,

Dee

[hello to everyone]

Hi Melinda,

I know diddly squat about tarceva but just wanted to welcome you.

Dee

[Dad update]

Billie,

I just wanted to say that I too felt you should be with your Dad. I'm so glad you decided to go and I'm so sorry about the fight with your family. I can't offer you any concrete advice because i've just never been there.

Dee

[Jennie Ross]

I see from my fellow Brit's recent posts that her husband is having scans tomorrow.

Best of luck, I've got everything crossed for you.

Dee

[Want to share but feel guilty]

Hell, don't stop posting the good stuff! I'm forever quoting from this board to my friend when she gets down. I can't make her admit it but I reckon she's a lurker now. She said something on the phone yesterday which made me suspsicious

Anyway, it's not just people who have signed up here who read and everyone sharing their good stories (including the I feel well and I have nothing to else to report) is massively uplifting.

Dee

[As Leslie says, "A Personal Woohoo"]

Peggy, this really is such great news.

Dee

[Claire's stopped smoking!]

I love her whatever she does but she phoned me up tonight bursting to tell me. It's apparently been four days and she wanted to wait to tell me until after she'd gone 3 days. This is her first quit attempt since her diagnosis and it came out of nowhere.

She said that when she got up on Thursday morning she managed to spill a cup of coffee over her last two ciggies. She went to microwave (??!!!) them to dry them out and thought "what the hell am I doing"? She hasn't had one since and she's proud as punch.

I know this is early days but as I said - it's come out of nowhere and she's thrilled. So am I.

Dee

[Pop's is gone.......]

Kathi,

I am so very sorry to hear this.

dee

[Life is so unfair]

I was going to say what Geri said. A dentist's trip would once have been the least of your worries

Dee

[New Plan in Place]

I'm glad there's a plan in place. it sounds like they've put a lot of thought into it as well

Dee

[An update on my Dad]

I am sorry to hear this,Brandy. Let us know when you know more.

Dee

[need help this morning.]

I agree absolutely with everything Becky said.

Dee

[Dad update]

Billie,

I have no experience of what you're going through and no advice to offer. I just wanted to let you know that you and your father are in my thoughts.

Dee

[Newcomer/Oldtimer]

Welcome Nell and I am sorry to hear about your husband.

Dee

[So far so good... but what a struggle (SCLC)]

Hi Jim,

I hope you stick around. You would give real hope to those recently (or otherwise) diagnosed with small cell. We know they're out there - it's goodto hear from them. Welcome.

Dee

[Scan time]

I wish you all the luck in the world. I was beside myself with anxiety over my friend's results. I don't know you guys cope with it.

Dee

[He's ok but.Dean has had an accident..]

Oh,I know how painful burns are. I'm really sorry to hear that you have this to contend with. I wish you a really fast recovery.

Dee

[This is the best support site!]

I'd certainly agree with that. I obviously looked for English sites first but stumbled across this one and never left. I love how clear it is.

Dee

[Rich 2000]

Rich,

Congratulations - you continue to be an inspiration to everyone here and those reading that you don't even know about.

Dee

PS I know you've had it for some time now but I love your picture.

[Update on Father]

I am very sorry.

Dee

[Hi, I'm Suzanne]

Welcome Suzanne. It sounds as though your Dad has a good medical team which will make things easier on him. Stay here with us - there is much to learn and I've never seen a question put that no one can answer.

Dee