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ChestHurts: I read your posts and it was like seeing me in a mirror image. For 3 years I have had the same pain as you, have had two CT scans, multiple Xray's and the same diagnosis of chostochondritis. Also, they said my posture is very poor and I have scoliosis. I also have the same pains in my gallbladder area, and underneath my shoulder blade. So, I have to believe its not lung cancer, although it scares me to death b/c I smoked for 10 years. I am also 31 years old, and have fibromyalgia symptoms so I think all of these things are inter-related. Most likely, in another 2-3 years I will have another CT scan to put my mind at ease, but for right now, I have to trust my doctor and the hospitals who did the tests that I do not have it. I feel your pain, b/c I have had the exact same thing. So don't worry about it now, take some time off and enjoy yourself, OK? We are in the same boat!

Carleen, Like KatieB said, everyone has written what I would say, or want to say. I just want you to know you are in my prayers daily, and also for the life growing inside you. Jesus will be there and is there when you don't think there is any way possible that He can. He is right beside you. Love, Wendy

Carleen, I am so sorry. I can't write b/c tears are flowing. You are so loved, you were so loved, and you will always be loved by him. He is there with you. God won't ever separate you. Love, Wendy

Hey, Have you tried Reliv products? I don't have lung cancer, but I started using them to boost my immune system, and generally feel better, (my mother recommended it to me) and my skin feels so good and so clear, and totally soft. She has been on it for several months, and it has totally changed her. TOTALLY. She looks amazing!! It's worth a try. I use the Reliv Classic, Fiberstore, and Energiser all together. It is an all natural vitamins, antioxidants, and herbs for health. It comes in a powder form. GREAT GREAT STUFF. You can go to the website or find it cheaper on Ebay. Just a thought for you! But I can tell a difference in my skin!

I don't know of any radon in the area, but I am from Nebraska. I live in SC now! I am from central NE, Kearney and Grand Island areas. So sorry to see your dad's diagnosis. If you need someone to talk to, I am here! Wendy

Andrea, your post is hilarious!!! You remind me of me. Both parents had cancer at the same time, and went through grueling treatments for a year. It was so mentally and emotionally challenging to me, I am now consumed with the "C" word. (especially since I am already a stark raving hypochondriac)! I too think I have had every cancer there is. Breast, Lung, Colon, Gallbladder, Bone, Brain, Liver, Ovarian, Uterine, etc. My husband teases me. If I stub my toe, or something hurts, or whatever, he makes up a name of a cancer. Like, Toe cancer, or Cancer of the Hair Follicle Shaft, or Cancer of the Eyelash. He takes my mind off it, and helps me realize I am being really silly. But, like all of you, I have a keen sense of something off or akilter, and if I ever do get cancer, I will know before I even go to the doctor.

Carleen, So glad you are feeling better, and you and Keith had a good day! Baseball and beer help take the blues away!!! The last time Jeff (DH) and I did IVF, we went to New Jersey, but stayed in MD with some family, and we were able to take in an Orioles game down at Camden Yards. It was awesome and it took my mind of my bloated, emotional fat self!!! I am praying for you guys. God does amazing things every day!!!!! Its not the number of breaths you take, but the number of moments that take your breath away!!! Love, Wendy

Hey Lisa: I don't know you, and you don't know me, but I live in the Charlotte area. If you need someone to talk to, give me a call. I would love to talk to you! I am so sorry of your loss, it must be the most difficult thing to lose your best friend and soul mate. Charlotte can be a tough place to be in, but it does grow on you! You just have to meet the right people!!!! Are you at Presby or CMC? I have been to CMC for numerous infertility treatments and they have a great staff!!!!! Anyway, let me know if you want to chat! Wendy

Sandy, I am so sorry for your loss. May God bless you and your family. He is in a good place with a lot of people laughing all the time!

Carleen, I am so sorry, you are both in my prayers.

Carleen: You may want to try these websites: www.inciid.org Go to the tab for "From The Heart Program" It is a grant program for a free IVF cycle. Also, google Cooper IVF Center, and they have a shared donor egg program. I have done that, and costs were very limited. Also, just to touch on adoption, if you did a private adoption, they don't look at health issues like cancer. We have started on that process too, and its a lot different than an agency adoption. Of course, when you feel better. I re-iterate what was said before, anybody who has been through what you are going through, IS AMAZING, even though you don't feel like it. And coming off hormones makes it 200x worse. Take care of you too. You and Keith are in my prayers daily.

Carleen, I don't know what to say. I am so sorry. I know the loss of IVF, I know it very well, but coupled with everything else you are going through, no, I cannot imagine, and there are no words sufficient enough. I know there is a plan for you and Keith, and whatever it is, God will be right beside you. He loves you both so much and will never forsake you, EVER. When you think He is not there, He is ALWAYS. You and Keith are so loved. I am so sorry. Wendy

Thank you Sher, you are so sweet. You are so pretty too! I am so sorry to see your best friend passed away!

Carleen: Congratulations on 3 years! That is great! I will be praying for 30 more for you and Keith! Also, those little embryos are fighters. They will hold on, and all it takes is one!!!! I will say a prayer for ya this afternoon! I know how stressful IVF is, its crazy. Just don't think about it for two weeks, and don't use the evil little pee sticks. They will drive you crazy!!! Heres to Carleen, Keith, and ????

Just a quick update! I got my CT Scan results back and they are 100% clear. I am really happy about that. Its time to put this to rest. You guys are all fantastic, and I deeply appreciate your support from the bottom of my heart. If I am still welcome here,I would like to hang around and be a friend. Love You All, Wendy Non Smoker for 80 Days TODAY!

Yes, I am praying for a laugh or two! I will be so glad when its over!!!!! Let me ask this, if there is something wrong, do they usually get back to you really quick or do they wait?

Welcome to you Pam, and prayers to you on your continued shrinkage! Hope the weather is nice in Florida! I am in SC and it has been gorgeous!!!!!

Dazy, I could tell you stories that would have you rolling on the floor. I don't know why I am this way. When I was little I had appendicitis, and it was so bad that I was in the hospital for a month, and that is when it started, and I have been that way ever since. It's really not funny, but it is. My family and husband get a kick out of it!!! If you have ever seen the movie Bandits, with Billy Bob Thornton, thats me! I have right sided difficulties. Beavers and Ducks!!!! Thanks for thinking of me, and I will be praying for you and your nodules!!!!!! It has been 75 days since my last cigarette!!!Yippey!

Carleen: I just want you to know that you are my goddess! I have been following you for three years, and following your husband's unique situation for 3 years. I just want to tell you I think you are an amazing amazing woman (just like every woman here), but you struck me b/c you are so young and I can identify with you easier. Also, the love you have for Keith is akin to the love I have for mine! We also have been through grueling IVF treatments for 4 years, and no baby yet, but we are still trying!!! It is not easy, and I just can't believe your strength in combining the two. You are amazing! That aside, I have often wondered if I had FM. My grandmother had it, and I always have pain, joint pain, and pain in the crook of my arms, and in my back. Also aching muscles, when I haven't even done anything. I have been tested for MS as well, and they said I didn't have that, but certain things that MS people have I have. I could go on and on about the "things" that bother me, but there is not enough room. I have been tested, retested, for everything, and nothing is happening. So, I don't know what to do. Quitting smoking helped, also, I cut out most alcohol, and that helped a little. But, I think this CT scan will set my heart at ease a little bit, it will kind of give me a "full circle" with the whole smoking thing! My husband was a smokeless tobacco user, and he quit too! I am so proud of him for that! I have prayed for your husband numerous times, I just want you to know. If you want to chat sometime, please send me an email. I am honored by your post! Love in Christ, Wendy

Karen/Laura: I am so sorry for your loss. May God watch over you and bless you at this time! He will never leave you nor forsake you!

Yep, I can take honest answers all day long! Everyone laughs at me!!!! I take it in stride, bc I know I have a problem, and deal with it by going to doctors about twice a month. That is my "therapy". Albeit expensive, it works! Like you, my docs are very supportive of me and pick and choose what they will investigate and what they say is a "NO WAY HOSE". I keep it in check most times, but sometimes my cup of worry runneth over. When I was 10 years old, I was convinced I had Down's Syndrome b/c of a PBS special. I was forbidden any medical books, tv shows, and sitting around old people talking about who's got what for a long long time. Anyway, thats a little humor for the day. Thank you all for your help, and I will update you on the CT results. Probably won't get them back till next week!!!!

Yes, I think this scan will be the definitive scan, and I will wait for a few years, unless a symptom would arise! Is it normal to feel this paranoid about having lung cancer? I thought I was invincible in my twenties, and now I feel like I am going to reap the reprocussions of what I have been doing. I am so glad that there has been so much on the news and airwaves about LC, maybe now funders will start to pay attention and direct more assets to finding a cure and better meds. Both my parents suffered from cancer, not lung, but breast and advanced melanoma. Prior to that, there have been no cancers in our families. Even though most of my grandparents, and older aunts and uncles were smokers!! I wish I could win the lottery to help fund lc research and prevention or do something!!!! The only thing I do now is bug all my friends and co-workers and they are getting sick of me!!!!

Thanks Dazy! Yes, that is why I am pushing for a CT scan, b/c I see that as definitive. I am praying for clean scans!!!!!!! I was looking at your history, and it looks like yours are just nodules? Can nodules turn into cancer?

sweettrain, I sent you an email!! I am smarter than I thought!!!

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