Hang in There it will get better!
I did quit when my mom was dx back in Nov 06. I had been smoking since i was 18 also but went cold turkey (i am 32 now).I was totally not ready but when i got the news of my mom's dx, i felt like i needed to do something. I wont lie, it wasnt easy. But as time passes it does get easier i promise. The first couple of weeks were the worst. I kept telling myself I cannot smoke anymore, i need to do this for my mom. It helped me (and still does) to get through the rough patches.
We're doing the right thing and making our mom's so proud!!
Please Pm me anytime if you want to vent/talk.
-Danielle