[Common Theme]

Thank you for your post. I am told often that I am being strong, I just feel like the feelings are locked in my brain. I let them out sometimes. Yesterday my neighbor came over and asked how I am doing, I had to tell her "I don't know". Tonight when I began reading the messages my chest got tight and I have to sit up straight to breathe. I was switched to Effexor for depression before we got the diagnosis and it really helps but the panic attacks come when least expected.

How do you put what you are feeling into words? I can't find the right ones now.

Barbb

[Looking for Hope]

Thanks everyone. I can see this is the place to be for support and friends.

We live southeast of Lincoln. Have you other Nebraskans heard of Hickman?

Barbb

[Looking for Hope]

Hi everybody, I am finally ready to talk about my husband's lung cancer. He has smoked for 38 years and I knew this bad thing would come some day. He had so much bone pain after knee surgery in March 2007 but we just didn't think of cancer. It has spread to some ribs and most of his vertabrae. He was diagnosed June 29, 2007 with non small cell squamas, stave IV. He is 54 years old and still working. He just finished his 4th session of chemo and is having a "break". Will have another scan on the 26th. I am pushing the feelings down but at night my thoughts are so painful. I am going to a therapist who started her practice over 20 years ago as a cancer patient/family therapist and it helps some, hurts some. It just feels so hopeless.

Barbb