Carleen-
Dear Sweet Friend. All I know is this....this is a hell of a way to live your young life. Yes, you are being cheated, for what reason we don't know. Maybe to make your love even stronger for one another. I cannot say my dear. I am praying that this is only a hump. No one knows why God lets these things happen. Maybe its because he gave Man dominion over the earth, and we haven't done so well with it. All the chemicals, and animals being killed, the land being destroyed by commerce...and the almighty dollar. Maybe he is trying to make man strong and tough. Maybe hes just a cruel and mean God. I can't say. It is not my place to say. Its my place to say hold tight to him, he will hold you. Maybe not the way you think. He might be the one giving you the energy to wake up and work those long long days at work. Maybe keeping you together. Maybe without him, we all who have to deal or dealt with this crap disease, would have been lost ourselves.
I know that your love for Keith is strong, and let that fuel you my friend. I know it does already. What I want to say is...Keep a chin up my sweet. Keep loving, and caring for all. Try to stifle the yucky feelings for others when they are laughing. I know it makes you sad, but the anger towards others makes the depression much much worse. Try laughing with them...its great medicine for you. Its so hard, I KNOW, but try my dear, just try.
As for Keith, he sounds so strong and mentally in tune with this shi_ disease. I'm not sure who said it, but I agree, that maybe when the house is being built it could fuel Keith. Its a mental thing. We can heal ourselves if we truly believe in our minds, hearts and souls. God gives us that power. But we have to harness it. Feeling bad though makes it hard I know. My mom lost the battle because she got so physically down, her mental state went down. Seriously, not trying to upset anyone who reads this...she started getting negative and cranky, and thats when the disease took over. Keep Keith up. Keep his mental state up. I know this is a novel to you my dear...but your pain and sorrow and depression is so deep. I want nothing but the best for my new LC family. I just want to touch on every subject that you posted.
Carleen my dear...you have so much to deal with. I pray you find strength. This is a hard bumpy road, but you can get the road paved hon....really...keith can beat this. I am praying for good scans, and good times ahead for you.
Please God hear me too.......Carleen and Keith need your wisdom and Strength that you possess. Please let them learn what the neeed to beat this. We ask that the hands of the Dr.s have already put Keiths cancer on the run. We ask for a cure in this world for this disease. Please give us the wisdom we need to find the cure. Please. Please bless all on this meassage board with good things. I pray this through Jesus our Lord and Christ...Amen.
Thats all I can do my sweet...I believe though, so you believe too, and we can have this prayer answered right away. You hang in there. If you need me I'm a PM away.
Much love for you and Keith your always in my prayers...
Rana
