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    Judy B

    in GENERAL

    Posted

    Hey guys,

    I am trying to work on this book Mom and I started, but I may just have to do my own story, anyhow, trying to think of some funny and inspirational things about Mom, maybe some ofyou know some thing I don't. She was the bravest person I knew and I am sooo proud of her for being so strong during all this, but still if you have a funny, chat story, or something, let me know.

    It has been just over two months and last week a new friend of mine was going through something similar to what I did in MOm's last week and I was a wreck for like 4 days, I mean a wreck, from wishing I had gone to that AIDS ride in 2001, because then I may have been on one of those flights, as many coming from the AIDS ride were. The point is I was feeling like it would have been easier for me if I had died first, but then Mom would have had to go through loosing her daughter to getting lung cancer in the same year. That would have been worse for sure. So my emotions are running all over the place, btu I am trying to focus on the positive and do something to help others, ya know?? Thanks for listening.

    Stephanie

    E-mail from shelliemacs

    in GENERAL

    Posted

    Can this get to Shellie??

    I am such a bad person for not being here the last week for you! My heart goes out to you and I know how hard it is! Big hugs from Scandanavia and I hope you know we are all here for you!!!!!

    Stephanie

    Nosebleeds???????

    in GENERAL

    Posted

    get him to a doctor, sorry and I don't want to scare you, but Mom had nose bleeds for a few weeks and never told us, and had a blood infection. Maybe they weren't related, but go see a doctor. Hugs and my thoughts are with you and your family.

    It just wont get easier, Why?

    in GRIEF

    Posted

    Hi there,

    You all said it perfectly.

    It has been almost two months since Mom died and I feel like a nutcase. I pretend to be happy all the time, because I am in a new studio in a new city with a group of people who don't know me, then I feel like I have been run over by a truck and I can't even move.

    Last night I was watching this silly movie called Bogus with Haley Joel Osmo. . .whatever from the 6th sense, you know the kid, and anyhow His Mom dies at the beginning and then he makes up this friend to help him deal with it. Well I have seen this film before and nothing, but last night I was watching it and I satrted to bawl, not just tears, really crying. I was shaking, and today I have been out of sorts all day. It sucks!!

    Do any of you ever feel like it didn't happen? and then you remember and feel guilty for forgetting for a few seconds? Do you have the dreams of your loved one that are so real you can feel their touch and hear their voice perfectly? Do you feel alone when there are many people around?

    I hate this sooo much, and I am so manic. I think it was Nathlie that said that and that is it.

    My Dad (divorced from my Mom) read me this thing he got on "when a loved one dies" and he was telling me all the things people say that are wrong, and it made sense. Then also made sure that I knew that I will never get over this, but instead learn to accept it. How can I accept she is gone?

    So 9 days , 9 months, whatever. it sucks.

    Hang in there. and sorry I can't be more inspiring.

    Stephanie

    sorry haven't been here

    in GENERAL

    Posted

    hi everyone,

    Copenhagen is amazing, but I am sad a lot about Mom. I have a couple people here I can lean on, or just to make me laugh when I am feeling sad, and that helps. The city is gorgeous and anyone is welcome to crash for a visit!

    I miss you all and the board so much. I am getting my own laptop at the beginning of July, then I will be back more often.

    Mig Dansk er meget gødt, no not really that good, but I am surviving, hahahahah

    cheers. Steph

    HOW DO YOU DO THIS????

    in GRIEF

    Posted

    Hi Peg,

    I canø't say I know exactly how you feel but my MOm passed way on March 27th and I still don't know how to do it. somedays I feel like I can't possibly go one with out her. I am lost without her. I feel like nothing I do matters anymore. I will have no one at my wedding, I have no one to see my accomplishmenst and I certainly don't know how to do this. It sucks and I feel for you and really wish none of us ever lost anyone to this evil disease, but I guess we just have to be here for each other and hope we can get through it together.

    Hang in there

    My mommy made the LA Times!

    in LUNG CANCER IN THE NEWS

    Posted

    Andrea,

    Sorry I am in Denmark, and not involved, but I want to be and I want to help you with all your are doing, for my Mom, and your Mom and everyone fighting, living with, or have lost to this terrible disease. Please email me directly at my hotmail account, stepholivieri@hotmail.com

    I think about it al lthe time and want to do something, especially since Mom died in March. I feel like I am helpless from so far.

    Big HUGS for all your spunk! Hope to hear from you soon.

    Steph

    In a peace now

    in GRIEF

    Posted

    sorry to hear about your Dad. My passed in March and it sucks, but I have been still talking to her and I have notes to her up on my mirror etc. They know we love them, I really believe that. Big hugs to you and your family.

    sorry haven't been here

    in GENERAL

    Posted

    Hello dear friends,

    I am sooooo sorry I haven't been around. Since Mom, Judy B passed I have moved to Copenhagen and have no had much access to the internet, but I promise you are all in my thoughts and I am working on something to help us all, you know for the cause. Just things are crazy!! Hugs to all my old pals, and know I care and to the newbies, welcome.

    Steph

    Sad in Copenhagen

    in GENERAL

    Posted

    hello all, I only have a few minutes, but I want you to know I am reading posts and I am here.

    I arrived yesterday and after breaking down on the airplane and crying int he loo for almost an hour I felt a little better, but today has been really hard as I miss Mom so much and can't tell her about anything that is happening to me here. I feel this huge void and it sucks!! My heart actually hurts and I can't stop it.

    I start work on Tuesday and so I feel that I will have more days like this. I miss her soooo much!!!

    I hate cancer!!!

    gggrrrrr

    hugs to all, Stephanie

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