I am here, I have been coming on but have not posted for a while. I haven't posted because I just don't know what to say anymore. I am at a loss for words, yes, me lost for words. I haven't even had words enough to ask Ry for a hall pass. I noticed that in the past I had posted over 1600 posts and now I am at a loss for words.
I just read about BobMc and my heart did a flip flop again.
Paddy, I read about your husband trying to get Iressa and that really has made me mad. I can't understand why our country, as big and rich as it is, can't get meds to people in need and who allow meds to cost so much that one cannot afford to try and live. If I were you Paddy, i would contact the maker of Iressa and ask for them free Iressa or at a very small charge that you can afford for your love. I gave Buddy's Iressa back to his onc dr and he was going to give them to someone who could not afford the cost. I had a three mo supply. Now I wish I had them for your husband.
My dear Jane, I know where you are mentally for I have not been able myself to leave the grieving stage this time. All the past times, mom, dad, brother, sister, friends, - - I made it through those, but this one is different. I want so bad for time to go back for just a minute or two again but know that cannot happen. I want to just feel his arms around me one more time and his telling me how much he loves me. I know you are on that same boat with me. We both know the way off this boat but for some reason we are not ready to leave. I miss my Buddy so very much. I try hard everyday to keep myself busy but am constantly thinking of him. I know it will take a very long long time for me to be able to accept his death for it has only been 7 months as of yesterday. Some days it feels like he just left me and other times like he was never here. Like it was some sort of a dream those 46 years plus five. I know and you know we will make it through this life until the good Lord decides our time is up too.
Bruce, get yourself out of the hospital and back on your feet. Chat time is tomorrow nite. Thanks for the e-mail. You let me worry about you, not you about me..
Dean Carl, know that you are constantly in my prayers. I miss hearing from you on board. You are one of my KNIGHTS IN SHINNING ARMOR.
FayA, I don't need flowers, just you as a friend is all I need.
For all the rest of you my friends, Debi, Ry, Mary Ann, Becky, Nell, Sharon, Elaine, Geoff, Melinda, David, Karen, Ginny, Connie, Peggy, Kathy, Cheryl, Shirley, Don, Bonnie, Cindy, Hebbie, Berisa, Rick, Katie, Tiny,and everyone else I have forgotten to address, there are so many of you, know that I think of each and everyone of you each day and pray every nite for your health and happiness.
Don't worry about me, I will make it till my time is up.....after all, I have all of you and who could ask for anything more. Till I post again, know I am reading here often, and with all my heart, love each and everyone of you.