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Tess,
I am at a loss for words. Just know you and Rob are in my thoughts and prayers. I pray for peace, for comfort, and for grace at times like this. I can't tell you how much I hate this disease. My Randy passed just four days before his birthday last year. He too was just about to have his 49th birthday. Like Rob, way to young to die.
You and Rob are in my prayers.
Shirleyb
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Gail,
I am more in line with your thinking. I don't trust doctors anymore.
I had six pics on the mammo and they did the ultrasound where it showed the tumor on the lymph. The idea of waiting six months is nuts to me.
I am going to be intouch with my primary care doctor and see what she says about the report. I only saw the images on the ultrasound and mammo pics. I do have 3 cysts on top of everything else. One is about the size of a small plum. So once I check with her and get her opinion, I will probably seek a second opinion. After what happened with Randy I have very little faith in doctors. My only other obstacle in this is the insurance company. Since it is a private health care network, I am limited in who I can see and have it covered.
To wait six months and see if anything changes is a crap shoot as far as I am concerned. I would rather have it taken out and biopsied and know for sure than wait the six months and wonder and hope and pray. I want answers.
I am trying to keep things inperspective, but I am not willing to gamble with my health. The letter I got in the mail, (so personal) said it probably is benign. But that is not a for sure. That is a bet and like I said, I would rather not gamble with this.
Thanks for listening. Everyone wants to hope for the best but until you know for sure it can wear on you.
Take care all.
Shirleyb
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I was really hoping that I could come back and say I was over reacting. My gut told me that this was not a false alarm. With that being said, I still don't know what I am facing other than I have a tumor on my lymph node in the breast.
I have to wait six months for a follow up test unless of course things change sooner than that.
I am still hopeful that it is not cancer. I need to keep my fears in check for my own peace of mind. I have to keep reminding myself that we have caught it at a very early stage whatever it is.
So.....on I go. One day at a time. Trying to cherish every day I wake up in the morning.
Thank you God.
Shirleyb
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ditto on what everyone else has already said.
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
May God guide you gracefully, with comfort and strength to see you through.
Much love,
Shirleyb
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Cathy,
Prayers are being said for you to be able to come back and say you are stable or even better.
Sounds like the trip will be so fun. Good luck girl.
Shirleyb
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Joni,
I remember only too well feeling like I had been dropped in the middle of the ocean and having no clue which way to swin after Randy died. I could not see the shore and I felt like I had no life preserver too save me.
I found that by coming back time and again to express myself like you are doing, that I found my life preserver. It was this board. There are many here who know how you feel.
I am glad you are going to get away for a couple of days. It will do you wonders. It will help you and Alex to be able to be together and not just at home.
You are both in my thoughts and prayers. Take care hon.
Much love,
Shirleyb
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Oh I hope this is just for a day. I sure hate to see Terry and your family going through this. My heart goes out to you all.
Many prayers being said that things turn around for all of you.
Shirleyb
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Andrea,
Like we have all said before, this is a roller coaster ride you don't wish on anyone. Not the person with the cancer or those that love them. It is a battle and sometimes it just gets to you so much. Take a break for a couple of hours and regroup.
I hope you are feeling better today. Take care of yourself both physically and spiritually.
Much love,
Shirleyb
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Ben,
Like your Mom, my husband did not breeze through his first chemo treatment. And he had a horrib cough to boot. For the cough though, they did give him a cough med that helped so much. Because he was coughing so much, it made it hard for him to get comfortable. Therefore the dhemo was harder. You might ask the doctor for something for the cough. It took about 5 days before Randy was not so wiped out from the chemo.
Chemo is very toxic to the body. It has to be to kill the cancer cells. That being said, it is no wonder she is feeling kind of bad right now. More than likely in a few days she will be able to be up and about alittle more. I know that after the first week, Randy did feel 100% better than the first few days.
I am glad you are able to help with your mothers care. Being a caretaker is not for wimps or sissies. It takes the love you have in you to be there for those that mean so much to you.
Many prayers being said.
Shirelyb
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Joni,
There is nothing awful about any of the things you are doing. You are doing what you need to do to survive. Give yourself permission to grieve, to be angry, to go on living even though Robert is gone from this life. Also give yourself permission to smile when you feel like it. It is okay. I think all of us who have lost our spouses have gone through this. So have those that have lost their parent or brothers or sisters. Our lives are so completely different, yet still the same. Keep coming back to vent, to ask for support, to just know you are not alone in this. Many of us in this part of the forum are walking the same path you are on. We may all be at different parts of the path, but it is the same path. You are not doing anything awful. You are just trying to survive the only way you know how. This part of life does not come with instructions. There is no right or wrong way to grieve. We each do it in our own way.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Shirleyb
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Angela,
I am so sorry for the sadness and pain that both you and your mother have after losing your father.
It is a blessing for her that you both can talk about him and cry with each other.
It still amazes me how fast life can change in just a matter of minutes.
I know for me it has taken time and acceptance to come to grips with the changes that have happened in my life. I know the time will EASE the pain but it will never go away completely. In accepting that, it has helped me to be able to remember the good times too.
Jane posted something a while back about always loving her first husband. I feel that way about my dad and my husband too. I will always love them and I will forever miss them.
You are both in my prayers.
shirleyb
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Carleen,
I have a girlfriend who suffered from pancreatitis for years. She would be in the hospital for up to a month at a time for it. She had her pacreas removed and is on insulin now. She said she wished she had done it years ago. The insullin is a breeze compared to the pain she was constantly in.
Good luck in getting this resolved for Keith.
Shirleyb
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Rick,
The only time I have gotten that is when I am trying to access the site through aol. It has only been happening the last three days. When I come in through any of the other internet sites, I get in fine. It is just aol that is causing me to have problems. Really makes me think I should get a new provider.
Thanks for asking.
Shirleyb
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sorry you had to find us, but you will find this is the best place to come for support. There are so many caring people here. Come often and let us know how you are doing. You will find in a very short time that we are like family.
Best of luck,
Shirleyb
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Terri,
Words can not express how sad this make me to see this news. I know the pain you are in and how much it hurts. I am so sorry.
I am glad you had your daughter with you and that you got to be with your hubby when he needed you most.
You are both in my prayers.
Shirelyb
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Gayle,
I am so sorry. There are no words to convey how I feel.
May God bless you and your family.
Shirleyb
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Gayle,
I am so sorry for the loss of your mom.
May God grant you comfort and peace in knowing your mom is no longer in pain but is in His presence.
Shirleyb
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Kim,
I wish you and your mom the best of luck. It will be a roller coaster ride, but then the rest of us are here to ride it with you. I hope you mom comes around to the point where she wants to fight to win. And if it is her choice is to go the path less traveled, know there are others here that have made that choice too and still have good quality of life.
I know it is hard for you right now. I can't imagine how your mother feels. Just be there for her. The rest have given you wonderful ideas and suggestions. My only suggestion is to keep loving her for who she is and be there for her in anyway you can.
I am sorry you have to deal with this.
You are both in my prayers.
Shirleyb
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David,
I am sorry the meds are doing this to you. I think Karen understands, doesn't make it any easier, but she does understand. Faith is a different story.
You are all in my prayers. No one deserves this disease.
May the good Lord provide you comfort and peace.
Much love,
Shirleyb
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Tess and Rob,
I am praying for you both. May you both have peace and comfort.
Shirleyb
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Ann,
What can I say. I am so glad for your son and his accomplishments. Dennis must be just beaming with pride and love for him.
I am sorry this has caused you such sadness. I do understand how it comes out of nowhere when you just begin to think you can do this. I know how much you must miss Dennis. He should be standing by your side at this wonderful time for your son. And it hurts like hell that he is not there with you. Dennis was far too young to have died.
I know you will smile through your tears as your son is graduating. I know you are so proud of him. Dennis will be with you because of the love he had for you and your boys. He is in your heart and part of your soul.
I hope the sun shines on you and your family on this very special day.
Much love and many warm hugs,
Shirleyb
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Carleen and Keith,
I am sorry for the turn of events. You are both in my prayers. I hope they are able to help Keith with the pain issue soon.
Shirleyb
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Cheryl,
I really hope this trail is the magic thing for you. Good luck through all of this new treatment. Keep us posted. You have given so much hope to us all.
Shirleyb