Pamela Posted February 24, 2005 Share Posted February 24, 2005 The subject is a little stark and abrupt, isn't it? But at odd moments, sometimes daily, that thought passes through my mind, and I am again shocked to realize that Dad really is dead. It just doesn't feel real. My mother died more than 11 years ago, and Dad died 6 months ago. Last night I had a very vivid dream in which Mom and Dad were both alive. I can still hear their voices, their laughter. They are gone, but they are very much alive to me. I want to touch them, talk to them, and it often surprises me to think that I won't ever be able to do that again. I'm 50 years old and yet I feel like an orphaned child. Isn't that odd? I spoke with my 55-year-old brother this afternoon, and he feels it, too. My heart goes out to those of you who have lost a spouse or a child. I cannot imagine such grief and pain. I think that grief over the loss of a spouse and grief over the loss of a parent are the same in some ways and different in other ways. I guess I'm rambling. I thought that after six months I would be closer to accepting Dad's death. But here I am. Grieving still. Pam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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