SherA Posted April 24, 2006 Share Posted April 24, 2006 It was 2 months ago yesterday when Rick passed away, and I still miss him so much, but it is starting to get a little easier to remember to breathe in and out every day. I don't feel like I'm having a non-stop anxiety attack anymore, just once in a while. And I think that's good, but it also makes me afraid that I'll start to forget some things about him, and I want to remember everything. I dream about him all the time, and in these dreams he's not sick or dying. It's like he's really here, and everything is normal and lung cancer was never a part of our vocabulary. And then I wake up and realize it was just a dream. But I'm glad that I have these dreams, because I feel like I'm really with him, if only for a moment. And they are happy, good dreams - not sad or scary. It's only when I wake up that I'm sad. The marker is on his grave now, and it looks very nice. Since he was buried in a National military cemetery, all the markers look the same. I just hope that the grass starts growing soon. I think it probably will, because his section is pretty much filled up now, and so the ground won't be disturbed there anymore. It's a very beautiful, peaceful place, with rolling green hills, lovely trees and small creeks, and it seems miles away from everything. I've taken some really nice pictures there, two of which I entered into photo contests. One took first place and the other took third. Rick must have had something to do with that, as he was a good photographer, too. I just wish that I would have taken more pictures of him. Take care, everyone, and thanks for being here for me. It really helps. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RandyW Posted April 25, 2006 Share Posted April 25, 2006 3 months yesterday for me and losing Deb! Glad you are ok Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SherA Posted April 25, 2006 Author Share Posted April 25, 2006 I know, Randy, I was thinking about you, too. I hope your doing OK. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ztweb Posted April 25, 2006 Share Posted April 25, 2006 Eternal rest be granted unto him, and may his perpetual light shine upon him always. I hope this finds you stronger every minute! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pammie Posted April 25, 2006 Share Posted April 25, 2006 Thanks for telling us how you are doing Sher. will continue to pray for things to get better. pammie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
adela Posted April 28, 2006 Share Posted April 28, 2006 Glad it is getting a little better for you. Adela Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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