Mskim Posted October 26, 2006 Share Posted October 26, 2006 Like I have said before, I feel that my grief is like the tide. Well the tide is coming in, and it is cold and painful and feel like it is crushing my chest. Why does it feel like it could be happening now? Like I should be laying on moms couch listening to her breathe? How can a date have such a huge impact on my emotions and my physical being? I know in my heart I would not have her suffer but today I just want her back. I don't care about the rest. I guess I am feeling sorry for myself.... poor me poor me. Why couldn't she have been the 12%? Why did God take both of my parents? Didn't he know this would crush my heart and wreck my soul? Life just keeps going on and mine seems to be standing still, with my feet stuck in the sand. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EastCoastLadi Posted October 26, 2006 Share Posted October 26, 2006 (((Kim))), I'm so very sorry you have to go thru such pain. Please know we are here for you. Grace Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nick C Posted October 26, 2006 Share Posted October 26, 2006 Three days before mom passed away, I sat on the couch and I listened to her sleep for two hours. While she slept, I cried, smiled, was thoughtful and reminiscent. It was an interesting couple of hours in retrospect. I wish you weren't going through this...I wish I weren't. I think it isn't feeling "sorry for ourselves" I think it is just plain unavoidable to want them back in the worst way. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kathleen1 Posted October 26, 2006 Share Posted October 26, 2006 I'm sorry for your pain. I am missing my Mom too. She left 8 weeks ago yesterday. I wouldn't want her in pain anymore either, but I would give anything for one more conversation. One more look at her, one more smile. I wish you didn't have to be feeling this way. I'm sorry you lost both of your parents, I'm just sorry. My Dad was in the hospital for the second time in two months with lung related problems - not lung cancer but severe asthma. Scared of losing him too - terrified. I can only pretend to imagine how you are feeling. I think in time it will get easier, but it will take a long hard time. Please write to me if you just want to swap feelings. I am thinking of you and wishing you better feelings and days. k Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mamasbabygirl Posted October 27, 2006 Share Posted October 27, 2006 I get it Kim-orphaned is not a good feeling. You know I care and wish I could be there to give you a great big hug. In lieu of that ((((((((((((((((((((((((KIM)))))))))))))))))))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted October 27, 2006 Share Posted October 27, 2006 (((((Kim))))) I'm sorry it hurts. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tnmynatt Posted October 27, 2006 Share Posted October 27, 2006 (((((Kim))))) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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