Mikee Posted April 8, 2009 Share Posted April 8, 2009 and it seems like time has passed so fast and at the same time stood so still. My grief has subsided and still floats back to the top from time to time. I still am single and don't have a desire to date or go out with the opposite sex although that could change with meeting the right person I suppose. I know Char wouldn't want me dwelling on the past and not giving myself a chance at being happy for the rest of my life. I have a problem getting out of "The House" when I am not working. I don't have a large support group around me right now and family live 150 miles away. So I go it on my own A lot. I meet with my grief support gals once a month. It is 6 of them and 1 of me. We all lost our spouses close to the same time. I have found that their is not very many Men willing to meet and discuss their feelings in the open and with others. I find comfort in disscussing my plight with others. After this year that has passed I have come to the realization that god isn't sending my Charlotte back to me. I seem to havehad this idea that if I get back home that something myraculus will happen.I have started the process of going through her clothes and belongings. This has proven very a difficult and arduous task for me. I can't help but get melancholy while doing this. I do know that the breakdowns have become longer in between breakdowns. I have become active in more events to occupy my time while not working. Hope and pray for a cure to this dreadful disease that tears lives apart. I refuse to believe that this is in God's master plan for us to accept this disease and not Fight it!! I will do my part to fight this till my very last breath!! To you all I say to you to never give up and fight the battle that you have been delt. Till my very last breath!! Mike Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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