jaminkw Posted May 17, 2009 Share Posted May 17, 2009 It's barely 1 pm so I thought there was still time to get in a Sunday's Air. It's a beautiful sunny day in Key West and when I finish here I'm going to try to bike. I made myself go out to dinner with friends last night (I'm old and hate 7:30-8 pm dinners) and will do so with other neighbors again tonight. Thank goodness an early one. It's been a rough week. I talk tough but don't think I've resolved this setback in my mind yet. I finally called an older cousin whom I love and who recently lost her husband. She felt bad, she said, talking about her problems to me. I assured her it was just what I needed, to talk to her and shift the focus from my cancer. But much later the conversation ended on a familiar note--with absolute conviction she assured me that she knows I have the determination and will to win this fight and I'll do whatever I need to do until...they are coming up with new treatments every day. Nice, good, appreciated but sometime I worry that I have so many people believing in me that's it's a big crowd to let down. People have always told me I have a great attitude--now I say, yes but look what it got me. The cancer's back. And I laugh. Sorry, the Air is supposed to be upbeat but I guess I just needed to be real for a minute. Judy in Key West Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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