JoniRobertWilson Posted September 16, 2004 Share Posted September 16, 2004 My dearest Joni, I am writing to tell you that I love you. I feel good today and am pretty peaceful. I ache in my heart to be with you, just near you. I am so grateful that god placed you and I on the same path. I know that the portion of the path we are on now is not what either of of could have foreseen, but I feel so desperately close to you, so much in love, so grateful for your love. I looked at Alex leaning against you as we sat on his bed last night and burned that image into soul. It's very hard for me to look at it...sort of like looking into the sun. I love you both with all my heart and soul. I found this e-mail from Robert. He sent this to me from work one day, early in his illness while he was undergoing radiation and chemotherapy. I wonder if it's too private to share but this note just seems like he just sent it. He was only 42 years old (barely) and I'm only 39. I don't want to be without him. I'm so lonely for him and his big ol' self! He was larger than life and his laughter filled our home. Well, I'm off to get some sleep with a little help from Ambien. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kimblanchard Posted September 16, 2004 Share Posted September 16, 2004 Thank you for sharing. I recently got an e-mail from Becky that she had sent to a friend about me dating again if the worst happened. She had sent it over a year ago, while still stable on Iressa and when we were so full of hope. Basically, she told our friend she didn't want to talk to me about dating again, because she was so afraid I would promise her I wouldn't. She didn't want me guilty that I had broken the promise or unhappy because I hadn't. I am coming to grips with the fact that she will continue to amaze me anew for the rest of my days. As will Robert's love for you and your son. I am so glad you got this vivid reminder of his love. Curtis Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KC Posted September 16, 2004 Share Posted September 16, 2004 Joni, I'm so sorry for your pain and your loss. I believe that you found that beautiful letter from your beloved husband again, now, as a sign from him that he is still with you. The words that he wrote sound like he is sending the same message to you from heaven. I hope that you get many more "signs" and wish you peace in the difficult times ahead. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kimblanchard Posted September 16, 2004 Share Posted September 16, 2004 Joni, I am so glad to hear from you. WOW what a gift. You were and are blessed. So was he. Margaret Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cathy Posted September 16, 2004 Share Posted September 16, 2004 Joni, That is so beautifully bittersweet.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ann Posted September 16, 2004 Share Posted September 16, 2004 What a beautiful note. I, too, have found little notes from Dennis from timt to time and it breaks my heart to read them but at the same time it brings peace knowing and remembering how strong our love was, after 25 years. Those of us left behind are so unfortunate, as we have to struggle every day to deal with the loss. We can only pray that all of our loved ones are gathered in a beautiful place and are watching over all of us! I believe that!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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