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  1. Hello, dear.

    I just want to offer a hug.

    My Bri died of LC on Jan 1 2006.

    I am still miserable missing him.

    My dear sister died at age 50 of sclc.

    I am still miserable missing her.

    When Bri was dx I had not had a smoke in 14 years.

    Last summer I picked them up again.

    I can't explain it.

    I can't believe it.

    I can't stand it.

    I am miserably guilty and my children are worried.

    I hate it and sometimes I hate myself.

    No explanation for you, no guilt trip, no answers, just complete and total empathy.

    I have your Hank in prayer (and you) every single day.

    More hugs,

    P

  2. One time when we were being silly, Brian gave me his class ring.

    He told me that he wished he met me sooner, but understood that I was who I was because I had been well loved before we met.

    It was one of those spur of the moment lovely thoughts and actions that I cherish.

    I wear his class ring on my wedding finger/with angora wrapped around it like in school days of yore.

    I love telling the story when people ask and my grandkids think it is so cool knowing some ancient history.

    I have my wedding rings from both Tom and Brian on a lovely chain hanging in my jewlery box right now.

    I may have the diamonds reset for granddaughters or for Brian's girls.

    It is just so hard and so sad.

    I probably will stop wearing the class ring soon and will wear my sales achievment ring from my company. It is lovely and has diamonds for each year I 'beat the boys' That will suffice, I guess. It turns out that that is who and how I am right now.

    Hugs

    P

  3. Dearest Ry,

    Brian died Jan 1, 2006. I am still working on things as they come up.

    at&t wouldn't even let me make changes to phone service and that turned into a huge hassle.

    My online banking still says Hello, Brian when I log in.

    The transponder for the toll road autopay was another big deal

    I am getting a passport and need to provide our marriage license again

    It just never ends

    Never,

    but neither does my love for Brian, so I guess it is just part of the combining of our lives which I am grateful for

    Hugs, dear.

    I am so so sorry and I really get it.

    Love

    P

  4. In the first place she can't even compose a sentence.

    She may be in the wrong profession...................how many horrible things have been said and done in the Name of our Father?

    I am really struggling w/ charity here.

    Hugs, Val.

    P

  5. My sister reminded me of this prayer from our childhood, it helped:

    For those of us who do not know,

    Saint Theresa is known as the Saint of the Little Ways, meaning she

    believed

    in doing the little things in life well and with great love. She is also

    the

    patron saint of flower growers and florists. She is represented by roses.

    May everyone who receives this message be blessed.

    St. Theresa's Prayer

    May today there be peace within.

    May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.

    May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.

    May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that

    has been given to you.

    May you be content knowing you are a child of God.

    Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow

    your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.

    It is there for each and every one of us.

    Amen.

  6. I did not want you to think I was AWOL so will just let you know that I will be in sales meetings all this week.

    Back next weekend.

    You all remain in my thoughts and prayers.

    Love

    P

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