Beth,
You have been through so much and I truly understand your pain. Being so young it was really hard for me to grasp that I really had cancer. I felt like I had so much more life left in me. Guess what, you do!!!! Do what you want everyday and don't worry about anything. Play with your kids, go to the park, listen to music, sleep---whatever it is you want to do. I'm sure you will find the med to help you stabalize your emotions. In the meantime, keep on venting- this is one of my favorite releases. You can vent to me anytime you want. Keep strong and live for today. Remember "today is a gift, that's why it is called the present".
Living life,
Jamie