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    life after death?

    in HOPE

    Posted

    Shelly-

    Gosh, I am so glad you posted I was SO worried. Yes morphine can make you hallucinate. So maybe she is hallucinating, but I have twin boys, and boy their connections are strong, so maybe your mom still has a connection with her twin sister, even after death? OHHHHH that would be so COOL!

    I also know that no one was judging you, my friend. I think that we ALL get so upset seeing someone go through pain like your going through. Heck my friend, I was yelling at GOD in the front of the hospital, and I didn't care. I still don't. God knows where our hearts are sweetie. I am sure that we were just expressing our concern for you, and preaching, ya know what i mean.

    You hang in there hon....we're all here, not judgin, just loving.

    Rana

    To my mom

    in GRIEF

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    To my MOM:

    God looked around his Garden

    and found an empty place.

    He then looked down upon His earth

    and saw your loving face.

    He put his arms around you

    and lifted you to rest.

    His Garden must be beautiful,

    he always takes the best.

    He knew that you were suffering;

    he knew you were in pain.

    And knew that you would never get well

    on earth again.

    He saw your path was difficult;

    he closed your tired eyes;

    He whispered to you "Peace be Thine"

    and gave you wings to fly.

    When we saw you sleeping

    so calm and free of pain,

    We would not wish you back to earth

    to suffer once again.

    You've left us precious memories;

    your love will be our guide;

    You live on through your children;

    you're always by our side.

    It broke our hearts to lose you,

    but you did not go alone.

    For part of us went with you

    on the day God called you home

    Beautiful

    Rana :cry::):?

    biopsy results

    in HOPE

    Posted

    Bless your heart, my dear. I will continue to pray for you. keep in touch with those dr.s on your symptoms too. PLEASE. Taxotere is what brought my mom down. I don't want it to happen to someone else. Make sure your not stubborn like her. Keep talking to them, and telling them how you feel, and ask questions etc. I will continue to pray for you. Taxotere is very hard on the body. Some people handle it well, some don't. I pray you are the one who handles it well.

    Much love,

    Rana

    Got a real scare today...

    in GENERAL

    Posted

    Kathy-

    I don't know if this might help you with the gatorade situation, but you get pediapops, they are frozen pedialyte, electrolytes etc, its in the baby isle. They taste like a popsicle, I know my mom loved them...basically it is what she was living on for a while. Its how she stayed hydrated, and it gives minerals.

    Also, I am in agreement with you, I think it was the Zomets, I am on paxil and I have NO side effects whatsoever, and my mom was on paxil and no side effects whatsoever. Hope this helps. Praying for you and Tim.

    Rana

    Oh pooh, feeling blue

    in HOPE

    Posted

    Hey guys, just asking for prayers for my family, for some reason the past 24 hours has hit my dad, me and my brother quite hard. Please pray that we may have some strength and peace. (I was proud on how well we were doing.)

    I MISS HER SO MUCH!!!! Sometimes I wish we weren't as close, then maybe this wouldn't be so hard, then I snap to reality and remember my best friend, mother and confidant, and HEROINE!!!! SHE WAS AWESOME! Then I think how I could ever wish that.

    Enough pity party. Please pray for peace and strength for me and my family. Thank you so much!!

    Rana :(:(

    biopsy results

    in HOPE

    Posted

    Oh my dear, I am praying for you too. Please stay strong, and hydrated on the taxotere...Please stay hydrated, hydrated, hydrated. Even though you might feel down and sick, please stay hydrated..keep those kidneys flushing and working. I will pray for you every day my dear friend.

    rana

    Update on Mom - how quickly things change?

    in CAREGIVER RESOURCE CENTER

    Posted

    Connie-

    Hey hon...I'm glad she had such a good day. That is so good. Its nice when that can happen, and your never ready to lose anyone, no matter how prepared you are my friend. Please come here and vent, PM me anytime. Honey, I loved the little craftys you sent me, they are beautiful, and I have them on my memoria shelf of my mom. I LOVE THEM. Thank you so much. I appreciate it. You hang in there okay.

    Rana

    cancers back and pneumonia too

    in GENERAL

    Posted

    Shelly-

    Oh my dear Shelly-

    I am welling up with tears at your pain. Oh sweet Shelly, please don't hold grudges, I know, mom just left me one week ago. I was so PISSED at God, not mad my friend, PISSED!! I would run out of the hospital and yell at the sky LOUD!!!!!!! (People must have thought I escaped from the crazy floor). It helped me so much. I'm still unsure why he took her, but know that your mom is still here, and what you need to concentrate on is...loving her, being by her side, telling her shes a great mom. Oh Shelly, it just so fresh in my mind, and I know what your going throught, mommys are so very very special. Being mad at God is normal, but questioning your faith is the exact reason this battle has been put upon all of us. We can't let the advosary win, we must still believe, although MAD AS HELL my friend, still believe. I can't say anything to help your heart, and spirit, but know I am here, and I truly do love you, and that your NOT ALONE, ever!!!!! PM me whenever you need! I am here.

    Rana :cry:

    God saw you getting tired

    in GRIEF

    Posted

    Janine, and all-

    Hey, we put that in moms little booklet, heres the version we used, and I will add some more at the end, talk about CRYING!! Its so perfect. Its so true, and precise ya know. Please don't cry all...its just beautiful, really it is.

    God saw you getting tired,

    the cure was not to be.

    He wrapped you in His loving arms

    and whispered "Come with me."

    You suffered much in silence,

    your spirit did not bend.

    You faced your pain with courage

    until the very end.

    You tried so hard to stay with us,

    your fight was all in vain.

    God took you in His loving arms

    and freed you from your pain.

    A golden heart stopped beating,

    two loving hands at rest.

    God broke our hearts to prove to us,

    He only takes the best.

    It's lonesome here without you

    We miss you more each day

    Life doesn't seem the same

    Since you've gone away.

    When days are sad and lonely

    And everything goes wrong

    We seem to hear you whisper

    'Cheer up and carry on.'

    Each time we see your picture

    You seem to smile and say

    'Don't cry, I'm in God's keeping

    We'll meet again someday.'

    That is the version we used, it fit my mom PERFECT, absolutely perfect. Its such a beautiful poem, and it works for so many fighting this damn disease. There are winners of the battle, but in the long run if we think about it all, those who pass, win too. If you believe in God, which I do, (of course, I made that clear many times... :D ) They moved on to a better more beautiful world, although we cannot touch or see them, the live on, in our hearts, minds, spirits, and look around you, everywhere is where they are. I pray that all who have had to let go of someone battling, that they realize that their loved one didn't lose the battle, they ultimately won it. They are not suffering, they are perfect and beautiful, young, and happy again. Life without suffering, thats all we want right? I pray this for everyone grieving.

    Have a wonderful week all

    Rana :wink:

    Beautiful SErvice

    in GRIEF

    Posted

    Thanks guys. My mom is the one giving me the strength, I know it. You guys rock. I mean it friends. Thank you for taking your time and spirit to listen and help me get throught this. I pray each and everyone of you whether caretaker or the one battling, have strength, never to give up. NEVER GIVE UP!! I believe in God, ALOT, and I believe that with God, you can have many things, including healing, and peace. I pray that for all right now.

    I will continue to post, and check in on this board, as you have all become family. Love for all,

    Rana :wink:

    Beautiful SErvice

    in GRIEF

    Posted

    Hi guys-

    Just thought I would let you know, moms service was so WONDERFUL!! Many, many people came, (didn't realize just how much she was loved by everyone, guess i should have figured eh?) My aunt an uncle performed the service, they are ordained ministers, and both are Dr.'s in Theology. They teach at Mercer University in Atlanta, GA. They are wonderfully spiritual jsut like my mommy.

    She still around though, in the smell, dreams, etc. Gosh, she was so beautiful. She wanted to be cremated, and my good friend made a collage of a whole bunch of pictures, enlarged them, and made a huge board in front of the chapel. Boy, so beautiful, and still is.

    Moms got alot of work to do, in just the first day she was gone, my brother got a promotion. Go figure~!! If thats not my mom..... :D!!! She is certainly making sure I've got my poo together too. I still have my moments where I just break down and cry. I used to talk to her every sinlge night for at least an hour. And I would go over there 2 or 3 times a week and just talk. That is what I miss most.

    We put this in her little booklet at the funeral, it says,

    On silvery white wings,

    they are carried to heaven.

    There they become Angels.

    In memory of our angel

    Carol Kerstetter

    1949-2003.

    She is our angel, truely our Angel. And now is the most beautiful Angel in Heaven, to me.

    Thanks for listening. It helps the grieving process to talk about it sometimes. By the way before mom passed, we asked her if she was scared, she said no. That makes ME SO HAPPY!!! No fear to go, must mean wonderfulness on the other side.

    Rana :?

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