Hi Sally -
Your post breaks my heart, too. I do know how you feel. Christmas has always been my favorite time of year and now I am just wondering if I will ever see another one.
You sound a lot like me - the one in the house who does it all, remembers it all, etc. And now you not only have to cope with what you are going thru, but with what your family members are going thru. Thats a lot on your plate.
I was running around getting all the Christmas decorations up and complaining about no help because I was worried about this being my last Christmas. Then my son told me - Mom, who cares what the house looks like, lets just be together for Christmas. Out of the mouths of babes, huh. Who cares if you have a tree up and lots of gifts - have your gifts to each other be that you ARE together. You don't need to cook up a storm - you just need to eat together, as a family, even if its just sandwiches!!
Concentrate right now on feeling better and maybe this will be a wonderful Christmas after all, even without all the fanfare.
My prayers will be with you and your family. Please keep us posted on how things are going.
Hugs to You - Patti B.