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4 mg dec i decided--after read your post - take half one now--half tomorrow morning half tomorrow night rtc

had MASK made today primsry doc found lung cancer (but could noy bring himself to tell. he said mass pulmonologist said nsc kung cancer and brain met made me get ct even though a week earlier pet showed no met to brain 5.4 c 5.2 mostly necrotic --does that mean dead brain tissue? rx today for dec he says start sunday balance off right parietal lobe after wbr - 4 to 6 weeks later some stereotactic said something about once shrunk look at other treatment still debate small or large 4 paths 1 small, 1 ne large 1 dead tissue

prayers, always Cat

a mass can cause swelling in the brain. Swelling fluctuates. Therefore, symptoms can fluctIuate. I forgot to ask Dr. this last part is just my guess.doctor knows about this site I told him before but did not feel like talking about it yesterday. I will be on Decadron. I asked why Decadron causes personality changes. He said basically it interferes with dream sleep. When you do not get dream sleep, it affects your brain and this causes psychological effects must get some sleep now. Cat

if you like that book, I think you would like"the accidental Buddhist" There is an old supposedly Druid saying: "when the next full moon rises, may what is within you arise and stand beside you. It is a blessing or it can be a curse. cat

when my daughter was 2, she watched as an ambulance took me away I came back a month later with a short wig. my long hair had been shaved -- a massive stroke. She did not recognize me and ran from me. we had to live in the projects -- low income -- drugs -- crime. When she was 13, she got a call from her father. He told her he did not have time to see her. He was moving to Georgia. That is so last she saw of him for a long time. Until college when she moved to Georgia. this is hsrd to write. she believes that we will go together to Amsterdam. the odds do not look good. she is so excited about this. If I die before that-- if I die -- it will kill her. please pray for her. my son -- I can't talk about that. He will not suffer as much. I can't bear to know how much she will hurt. dear God, it would be nice if I could live long enough to see Amsterdam with her. please take care of both of them. Thank you. cat

my prayers to you and your family. cat

Jane is an extraordinary person. She only says good things about people, though I think she had tobite her tongue once or twice I like her. She is not a gossip. I like that. We are very lucky to have such a compassionate person helping this board. She deserves a lot of praise -- and I mean a lot. I honestly don't think people appreciate how much she helps -- not just money -- but with compassion. Thank you everyone who has and who is praying for me. thank you all the many compassionate people here. That tumor is creepy big. It is a wonder I am functioning. Thanks God. The Buddhist Church is very very small. Sadly some people seem to be there just to say they are Buddhists as though that is the thing to be right now. Buddhism is not a "thing to be". it must come from the heart. Cat I am still having much problems posting also, whenever I cat-- my name -- it types can't. boo hoo

many many prayers cat

app I keep getting kicked out. After,Jane, I will tell you what he says. I hope that will make me remember.

I am moving to Georgia with daughter.ex husband -20 years -- coming to pick me up and drive my car there. voice recognition software hard to use. IE stutter. two hours until doctor appointment.God give me courage.

my fault pressured nurse i made guess i used wrong otonounciation she goes no, called xxxx lobe

bye bye depressing post

keep trying to post and pm but am getting noehere waiting on docs ehen they wont tell you news must be bad

by by depressing post

prayers for couragesous man Cat

prayers Cat

sorryDave my prayers Cat

my prayers for all of you cat

Easter morning a few years ago I went to the beach to see the sunrise hundredsof people were there the sun was rising it was huge red glowing unbelievable hundredths of people but no one said a word we just watched the sun rising Easter morning it was awesome I felt like falling to my knees in gratitude to see such a sight thank you God I will never forget even when I hurt so bad I doubt you

"When positive or joyous feelings and attitudes pass through each organ and circulate through out our whole system, our physical and chemical energies are transformed and balanced."

I wish I knew what to say cat

reading over my post to you, it seems as though I was talking down to you sorry I honestly feel that way -- I'm kind of weird. I hope I didn't offend you. Take care, cat

welcome my prayers are with you cat

yellow - long trip not enough breaks cat