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Today was busy with school and that's a good thing. I try to stay busy I swear I do.
I started a speech class today and we were brainstorming topics that we were very knowledgeable about or passionate about. My list was all medical related, you know, patient advocacy, the sandwich generation, the care received in nursing homes. I almost starting crying when I reviewed the list and thought how sad my life has been. Talk about a major pity party for myself this week. No one is invited, but you can pop by if you wish. Urgh...
I did decide this morning that I was going to try to make lemonade today, but it has been hard. One thing I did do was talk to my brother about how alone I felt yesterday and he is going to start meeting me for lunch twice a week.
The other bright side, I know my mama is so proud of me for being back in school. I keep envisioning her smiling proudly as I receive my diploma. It was one of her lifelong wishes gets me up and out the door some days.
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You are always in my prayers Ralph. I am glad that you checked in about the WBR. Fingers crossed that this works in a BIG WAY!
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Your story is very sad Brandie. I am so very sorry this happened. Peace be with us all...
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You know something is not right when I come back and read "their gone"-my biggest pet peeve ever.
I know Val. That sure would be nice. I have thought several times about leaving like Don has decided, but if I did, who would I have to come and talk to about this kind of stuff? John is oblivious and I feel like my friends have listened to me gripe enough. I have one friend who is so very supportive and I called her tonight. I just hate to rain on her parade ALL THE TIME. I have to share "the love" I guess.
I have been thinking about my mom and how she was truly the glue that held my family together, her brothers and sister and my cousins. I'll have to be the glue, but I sometimes just don't have it in me. Today was definitely one of those days.
Thanks for being here to listen. My grief goes way deeper than I have recognized so far in my motherless journey. MISS YA MOM
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Wow, I simply can't shake it today. I feel so lonely. This royally sucks not being with my family today. I have my kids and I should not be taking them for granted, but on days like this, I am so used to being with my family, it is lonely-a BIG reality slap right across the face today. She's gone, their gone, I am lonely.
I could have taken the kids swimming at a friend's house, but John assured me we'd have a fun day, just us. Well, by the time he works 12 hours and then comes home only to deal with his mom (who is so pitful and negative, bluck), he is spent. So, that leaves me with the kids (just like every other day of the week).
I hate this. It is hitting me hard today that this is the new normal for the rest of my life and I can't stand it. Maybe I need a hobby, but I am the kind of person who needs people around me, have always had it, but not any more.
Just had to vent. It didn't help much though.
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Dana,
I lost my mom in September and my grief comes in spurts really. I can be "setoff" by seeing something like mothers/daughters in a car together OR any milestone dates, holidays, when my kids do something that I wish she was there for.
You DO have a good life and I know your mom was proud of you.
Keep on keepin on Dana, one day at a time.
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GOOD GOOD GOOD INDEED.
I am so very happy to hear this!
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Goosebumps here too. Kelly, this is truly a legacy to hold onto-wowwwwww.......
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((((((MISSY))))))))
I send my love to you and your family. I came here tonight looking for a post from you, and knew it may be this, but it still hurts. I am so sorry.
I pray that our moms are raising cane in heaven.
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I have never been to Hawaii, but am so very happy to hear that these plans are in your future-now that's a BIG STEP in the right direction. KUDOS and have an awesome time!
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WOW! That is awesome news!
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Christine put it correctly, what a nightmare!
I am so very sorry that you have to see your father so ill. I hate lung cancer!
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Heather,
I have read here many many times that time does not heal the wound for some bc it means they are farther away from their loved one. It sounds like you are feeling that right now.
It is OK to feel crappy. You just lost your mom and it sounds like best friend, as my mom was to me. It just plain hurts and life will never be the same for us. We are still on a road, probably for many years, that has a ton of ups and downs and we just have to get through it. I feel blessed that we have one another to help on days like this. Vent on, we're here.
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As you can see from my profile, this was some of the orst pain my mom had. She tried magic mouthwash, but even drinking water hurt her. It WILL subside and that is the good thing, but sometimes it takes a few weeks.
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Oh Mary, I am so sorry, but he is in the arms of the Angels now. May God hold you close in his arms in the upcoming months.
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Still praying "God please let this work"
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OK, so this post has me crying, which is OK. YOu are such a strong woman Missy with such a beautiful perspective on life, the big circle that it is.
I am so glad you feel comfortable with your mom's caregivers, that is great.
You are in my thoughts every day. May God grant your mom peace.
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In KY, there are summer camps through the YMCA and the fees are based on your income. Just an idea...
It makes me so sad to hear that Karen feels isolated and you are obviously overwhelmed. I will keep trying to think of other possibilities that may help out during this most difficult time. Hang in there...
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OH, duh. So now I see you are in Colorado.
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Oh jeez, Ralph. I hope the WBR will zap these things into oblivion forever-enough! Keep your fighting spirit and I will pray for succesful results.
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Tanner,
Next time someone says "If there's anything I can do to help, let me know", please say "As a matter of fact, I need help with prepared meals that I can just warm up." In my caregiving journey, I would get so frustrated with people offering to help, but doing nothing. I figured out that you need to ask for specific help bc people are oblivious or don't want to overstep their grounds.
Where are you guys located?
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Please don't worry about the liver enzymes yet. I remember that happening to many members here, including my mama. I can't remember what they said was causing it, but they were elevated and there were no metasteses. For now, I say focus on the WBR, learn everything you can and pray pray pray. I'll pray with you...
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This is so sad, but true in our situation too. I had a stepdad who was part of "the team" and my mom and I fighting the vultures off. I am so sorry Tanner, I truly am. You are in my prayers. You'll get through this somehow, someway. Reach out...