dawnT Posted May 1, 2005 Share Posted May 1, 2005 Though I haven't posted often I feel like I have run the whole race here. I have gone from the newcomer forum to the nsclc forum and now to the grief forum. I am not sure if I should even be here yet but I definetely know I am grieving. As I sit and write my beloved older brother is in a hospital 80 miles away slipping away. I posted earlier in the week about his recent journey and obviously it has continued. I was called up there on Tuesday because his wife and children wanted me present when they had to make the decision to remove the respirator he had needed since entering the hospital 6 days before. We made the right decision and the ventilator was removed. Amazingly things turned around for him and for the next day he was able to breath on his own and actually communicate and spend time with us. Last night things again started looking like the end. I had returned home to my family on Friday and my SIL new that today was my son's birthday and that tomorrow is my daughter's college graduation so waited until this afternoon to call me. I know that right now I have to be here for my kids and that that is what my brother would want but I am feeling very alone and guilty for no being there. I was able to spend time with him before I came home and to say good bye , but this makes me crazy. Sorry this is so long but this has been a great place to vent. Will keep you all posted. Dawn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ry Posted May 1, 2005 Share Posted May 1, 2005 I am sorry to hear about your brother failing. It is hard..your heart wants to be in both places. I hope you are able to see him again Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted May 1, 2005 Share Posted May 1, 2005 So sorry you and your family have to go through all this. My prayers are with you all and your brother. Don Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bbays Posted May 1, 2005 Share Posted May 1, 2005 I'm so sorry to hear this. I will be praying for your brother and you. Barb Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Patkid Posted May 1, 2005 Share Posted May 1, 2005 Blessings and peace. Your brother knows, honest. Love Pat Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kasey Posted May 1, 2005 Share Posted May 1, 2005 Please do not spend your time fretting. You HAVE made all the right decisions for your whole family. Sometimes there are difficult ones - as you know. Having some experieince with a brother, I feel yours does, indeed, know that your heart is with him. Hopefully you will get the chance to see him again. So sorry for your heartache. Kasey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maryanne Posted May 1, 2005 Share Posted May 1, 2005 Oh Dawn, so sorry to hear that you brother is failing. He knows how much you care, so you have absolutely no reason to ever feel quilty. I pray he has a painless and comfortable passing. Peace be with you. Maryanne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted May 1, 2005 Share Posted May 1, 2005 Dawn, My heart goes out to you. As you said, you are where your brother would want you to be. Wish I could find the words to comfort you and ease your pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gail p-m Posted May 2, 2005 Share Posted May 2, 2005 I am so sorry to hear about your brother. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. Gail p-m Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dadstimeon Posted May 2, 2005 Share Posted May 2, 2005 Very sorry to hear about your brother. Prayers for the both of you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Recommended Posts
Join the conversation
You can post now and register later. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.