cmays82 Posted November 15, 2006 Share Posted November 15, 2006 Hi everyone. Yesterday I didnt go to my radiation treatment, which I only have 8 days left to take. I didn't go to my chemo treatment also. I am getting tired. I cant understand why since I am almost at the end of my treatments I dont want to go. I'm scared of what I might be told. I already know that after my treatments they still cant remove my tumor because of its location. So my tumor will always be there? I'm scared of what I will be told after my treatments are over. I'm just so depressed right now. I know I have came a long way, but not knowing what is going to happen scares me. I have a antidepressive med, but I am not suppose to take it because of my liver. I keep have the sweats. I have radiation treatment this morning I am going, I know its for my benefit. I am forcing myself to go. My appetite is changing again where I dont want to eat. I just dont know what to do. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ginnyde Posted November 15, 2006 Share Posted November 15, 2006 I can't begin to imagine how difficult this must be for you, how scary this whole journey is. I wish I had a magic pill to make everybody here all better. Just know that there are hundreds of people here praying and hoping for your successful treatment. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted November 15, 2006 Share Posted November 15, 2006 Hang in there. You have a lot of support here. My wife took Effexor, which is an antidepressant that also minimizes sweating. You might check into that with your onc. There is a lot of uncertainty with lung cancer that we have to learn to live with. Keep us posted. Don Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ernrol Posted November 15, 2006 Share Posted November 15, 2006 Being scared is normal. By going to your treatment you can find out more and better plan on the way you will beat this. I had no surgery and my tumor is nothing but scar tissue. From stage IV to scar tissue to NED (no evidence of disease). So start thinking how you are going to make your tumor become scar tissue. None of us cancer or no cancer knows what is going to happen to us when we get up each morning. Just think of each day is bringing you one day closer to being healed. Keep us posted. Stay positive, Ernie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Calintay Posted November 15, 2006 Share Posted November 15, 2006 I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Please try and make it to your treatments if you can. I am praying that when you treatments are all said and done that you will have terrific news. Many hugs and prayers for you right now Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sharonjo Posted November 15, 2006 Share Posted November 15, 2006 Listen to Ernie. Instead of worrying about something that may or may not happen, concentrate on being positive that your treatment is working to kill your cancer. It is fact that having a positive attitude will help you in your fight against this disease. Cancer can be beaten, you just have to believe that you can beat it! I am keeping you in my prayers. Hang in there, finish your treatments, and stay strong! God Bless, Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
blaze100 Posted November 16, 2006 Share Posted November 16, 2006 Hi Cmays, Be sure to let your docs know you are pooped out. If you really can't go on, they might decide to delay your treatments for a few weeks. But I urge you to try as hard as you can to finish. The radiation really zaps your energy, but this means it is killing the tumor too. You've got to try to fight as hard as you possibly can. Just a few more treatments, then let your docs do the worrying about the next steps. Prayers, Barb Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carolhg Posted November 16, 2006 Share Posted November 16, 2006 This cancer is so scary. I use to have waves of panic to just come over me because I was so scared. I was scared to go to the doctor-afraid that he might tell me what I did not want to hear. Once I started to get chemo and radiation I was afraid for that to end because I was afraid that I would be left unprotected. I was afraid to go for surgery-because I was afraid the cancer had spread. I still am afraid sometimes. When it is time for my scans I am afraid that they may tell me the cancer has returned. Sometimes I have to take my anxiety medicine just so that I can count my Blessings. This is hard sometimes, but fight anyway. You don't owe cancer a thing so don't give it any advantage by not going for your treatment fight. Your emotions will also take your appetite away when you are afraid. Please fight this! You are not alone. We have all been afraid at one time or another or at many times and at times we still are. It is apart of the 'new normal'. Prayers Carol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RandyW Posted November 16, 2006 Share Posted November 16, 2006 "Die, Tumor, Die" and You can name the tumor after someone you do not like too. Try it. It may help. Sending prayers for you this morning. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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