crystleshoe Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 mom is now in ICU. Her wbc was up a little but her red blood count is still low. Her platelettes are now higher so they gave her some heparin because her feet are turning purple and they are concerd about circulation.Her lung was full of fluid and she was having some distress with breathing so they put her on a ventalator. It was such a shock when i walked in and saw her that i couldnt stay in the room and i had to run to the ladies room and throw up. Her doctor met with us and told us that there is some liver damage and her lung collasped and her breathing is not good so at this point we are waiting to see if the second blood transfusion will help her. They were giving her blood when we were leaving. She is unresponsive and im not sure that she knew we were there. We needed to decide if her heart stopped did we want them to resusitate her or let her go. We decided that we have to let her go. She would hate to live like this and she had always made it clear that she didnt want to be "hooked up to a bunch of machines". My husband cant believe that i have any tears left, I am surprised if I make it 15 minutes without crying. I took today off work and I will not work tommorrow but I cant decide if i can handle another day of sitting there and watching her like this. I feel so lost and I cant even decide if I want coffee or tea. Oh well I cant tstop the progression of this awful thing happening to my family all I can do is try to make things easier on my dad. Thanks so much for listening Cheryl Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kreed70 Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Cheryl~ I am so sorry! I'll pray that this all gets under control and you'll have more time. Take care of yourself. Kelly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sharonjo Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Cheryl, I am so sorry to hear this news. I am praying for you and your family. God Bless, Sharon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
crystleshoe Posted January 10, 2007 Author Share Posted January 10, 2007 I guess there is never enuff time. I am so glad that i have had the ability to spend so much time with her over the past 4 months and that she knows i am there for her and thet she knows dad will be taken care of. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mary colleen Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Cheryl, I feel so sorry that you are going through this. I think it's important that you try to stay with your Mom. Though she appears to be unresponsive, your voice or touch may comfort her. You are in my prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Treebywater Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 (((((Cheryl)))) I just ache for you. Please know that we care and we're praying. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Martha02 Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Cheryl, I know how hard it is to see your mom like that. I went through it last year around the same time as you. We were face with the same decision regarding the do not resuscitate if the heart stops. It's really important that you spend time with her now. I tried to spend as much time as possible with my mom, even if it was so hard to see her like that. She is not the mom you know, I know. It's almost surreal what you are going through. Hang in there. My prayer is with you and your mom. Martha [/i] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Connie22 Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 This brings back so many memories for me. Please know that we are here for you and I will say a prayer for you and your family. For me, I needed to be there all the time. Everyone is different. Please, do what you need to do. Hugs and prayers Connie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ma's kid Posted January 10, 2007 Share Posted January 10, 2007 Praying for you all. Libby Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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