barbara5452 Posted February 15, 2007 Share Posted February 15, 2007 Today will be my 9th radiation treatment to the mediastinum and I had my first chemo this past Monday. It has not been too bad, just I woke up today tired, the kinda tired sleep does'nt help. I stayed home from work, I was hoping not to miss work this early on, but just could not make myself go. Would like to know how many of you continued trying to work full time while going through this ? Went for my follow up with the surgeon who did my surgery in 2004, not sure what the purpose is no surgery to be done. I always leave his office and have to stop at the nearby park and have a good cry. He told me he could not say this was curable this time but that maybe I could buy some time. It hit me hard, as I cried I tried to remember all the post in this forum and how many are still here and doing okay, that is what I have to hold on to right now. He is so negative and Ive decided not to go back to him, he only upsets me. If and when the time comes for negative well I handle it the best way I can, but for now I need positive. He always pulls out that damn path report from the surgery in 2004 and shows me the cancer was not there then, Ive told him the fault lies with me for not being more agressive in demanding chemo as a precaution back then, I think he has a guilty mind. Any way I was very depressed last night but battled it out in my mind to prove him wrong, If its time Im getting thats okay just make it along TIME..... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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