Pamela Posted August 2, 2004 Share Posted August 2, 2004 I am in Texas with my Dad this weekend, and I know in my heart it may be the last time I see him alive. I finally located a Internet connection today so I could check on this board, and discovered three heartbreaking losses. I cried when I read about Don's mother, only to read further and read about TBone and then Rob. By the time I finished reading those, I was broken with grief for people I've never met and families I know are hurting today. Dad is lying in the bed next to me right now. When he wakes up, he yells out in pain because his back hurts so bad. We've had to double his pain medication in the last 24 hours. He has been in the same position now for about 18 hours because when we try to reposition him, as gently as we can, he begs us not to touch him. My Dad has been in my life all my life and I cannot imagine that day when he will be gone. I am looking at him sleeping now with tears running down my face. I don't want to say good-bye when I have to return to Missouri tomorrow. I don't want him to hang around in pain, either. But it doesn't really matter what I want. I cannot keep him no matter how hard I try. Peggy, you wanted to know why you should come to this board. Please let me be one of the reasons. I need the support and encouragement of this group of people as I face this horrible time. And when I have come through it, I very much want to help someone else along the path. It is a sad, sad day. But I am grateful to have this place to come. Well, Dad is moaning in pain again. I must go. Pam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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