First, please allow me to express my deep-felt sympathy at your recent loss. I lost my dear husband, Dennis, to sclc on December 15, 2002. I know that you cannot imagine right now that things will ever be brighter and the sun will shine again but THEY WILL! When I lost Dennis, I asked the same questions you have put to the members of this forum. No one can give an exact time frame of when things will be better, as it varies from person-to-person. Right now, your system is still in shock. Shock can be a wonderful tool for coping and healing. There is no magic time that things will get better...three months, six months, one year? When you turn a page on a calendar, it is another day you have managed to get through. After a time, you will begin to count weeks...then months. Every important date and milestone in Chris's life will be difficult for you. I made it through a Christmas without Dennis. Then I made it through New Years Eve alone...for the first time in 26 years. Then came Valentines Day without Dennis and his sweet little gifts. Then March 17th, which would have been our 25th wedding anniversary. Two of our three children's birthdays have passed. Dennis would have been 51 years old on June 10th. With each day, I think about what I was doing this time last year. This continues, but yet I am beginning to live for the future as well as the past. Dennis would have wanted me to live...as he would have like d to live! I'm sure Chris would have wanted the same for you. We cannot physically nor mentally die, although many times our souls and spirits seem utterly defeated. One day, you will wake up and for some reason things will feel a bit better. Then, every day thereafter becomes a bit easier. I can advise you to stay busy and to talk about Chris a lot. As long as you keep him alive in your memory, he will always be a part of you and your life. If you ever need to talk, please know that I am here for you. I am a survivor...and you will be too. This terrible disease took the lives of our loves but we cannot allow it to destroy our spirits in the process!!! God bless you and keep you safe!!!!