Why is it that everyday I struggle, the emotional pain is so unbearable. I pray, but I get easily discouraged. If my tears were made of money I'd be a very rich woman! And this is a constant reminder to my husband, he's the one with the cancer, I try to put myself in his shoes and think, how I wouldn't want to see him like this, because it would only remind me of the cancer. Of all the lc to get, he's got probably the worse, it's not fair, how come there are purely evil people out there who are fine, healthy? I don't get the logic in that! I'm sad because I don't think of a bright future, it pains and scares the life out of me. I love my husband so much, because of him I'm able to stay at home and raise our children. But what happens to us, when and if something happens to him????. And all the anti-drepressants and therapy still can't take away the sadness. I'm so sorry to be such a pestimist, I wish I could change.....