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It's been 29 days since Don went to be with the Lord and I just don't know whats up or down right now. I have moments when I analyze my situation and think that all is going to be okay and then suddenly everything just falls apart and the terror takes hold of me. I'm on medication and it doesn't seem to do anything. My doctor wants me to see a shrink but I can't bring myself to pick up the phone because I "know it's just going to be yet another PILL". Why is it that doctors always think a "pill" is going to take care of everything?
I'm just so depressed that all I want to do is sit in front of the computer and play games, but just how long can I do that? As soon as I walk away from the computer and look at something it all starts again. I need to find a job soon because of finances (his ex got most of it....including some of mine, but that's another story) but if I can't even go to the market without having a break down or seeing something silly like apples (my husband loved them) then what now?
People will call and I can't bring myself to answer the phone. I have a neighbor who invited me over for dinner and I can't go....I just can't.
I'm exposing myself and what I'm going through here in hopes that someone can offer advice. I know there are many here who have dealt with this as well...or at least I hope so because I feel like I'm going crazy.
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I posted earlier that I had some banking to do this morning....well, dumb me....they were closed for Veterans Day.
It seems I'm not exactly the brightest crayon in the box am I ???? That's okay...off to play on FB now. I have to go tend to Judy's farm
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Good morning to all! From looking out my window this morning I see it's going to be cloudy, but I have to head outside today anyway. I haven't been out in days but I have some banking to take care of....so I'll just have to throw on a baseball cap and run. I don't have the desire for fixing my hair and putting on make-up, so if I scare anyone today it's just too bad huh?
Janet...thanks for starting a cafe! I agree it's very addictive put I enjoy it because it takes my mind off of things right now. Ann is the one who got me started on it and I'm grateful for the distraction.
Have a wonderful day everyone!
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Just wanted to share something I read on a website called, "Spiritual Bridges". It is really comforting. I hope everyone enjoys it.
Deceased loved ones are available to us anytime we think of them-in another dimension and just in spirit form. Existing only a thought away. Death does not separate us in a spiritual sense; in fact, we can enhance our relationship even more so because there is no judgment on the other side. You may communicate your truest intentions of your heart. They are completely aware of your thoughts and feelings about them. Our souls are intertwined by energy, allowing us to draw on this energy to communicate with them, telepathically.
There are many ways a deceased loved one can communicate with a person; vocal, a touch, a smell, visual experience, dreams and through electricity. They keep their After Death Communication (ADC) to a minimal as not to startle or scare you. ADC is their gift to you, assuring you of their survival, letting you know they are just fine on the other side!
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Johnny certainly is good looking! I love that full head of silver hair too...always makes a man more handsome (to me anyway). Thanks for sharing Lily!
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Here is another one..............On our 10th wedding anniversary my husband took me to Laguna Beach for the week end. It was one of my favorite places to go. I loved walking into all the quaint little shops there and especially the jelly bean factory
His favorite thing to do was eating steamed clams Anyway when we arrived and were going into our room there was a HUGE bouquet of yellow roses and champaign chilling! It was just so thoughtful and romantic....I was totally stunned. Later that night when we came back from dinner he took a small package out of his pocket and gave it to me. It was a diamond ring....he said to me "After 10 years of putting up with me I thought you deserved a bigger diamond engagement ring then the one you have". Little did he know that I adored him and our lives together and the ring wasn't necessary, but it sure is beautiful!!!!!
We had so many beautiful times together but this one sure was special....and it always will be. I had his wedding ring re sized to fit me after he passed and I wear it now....right next to that 10th Anniversary ring.
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Lily.......I'm looking forward to seeing the picture of Johnny! I've heard so much about him from you and it would be nice to see one!
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Those are some adorable children! Thanks for sharing them with us!
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Ohhhhhhhhhhhh Randy.......Thank you for posting this! And Marisa....I'm sending more prayer your way dear one.
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I still don't know what the weather is like here other than looking out the window. Looks okay I guess. I've been staying inside doing things around the house that have been neglected for some time. I'll do that today also in addition to FB (again...ugh)
I had a nice long chat with Lily last night on the phone. She's still having problems with her ankle swelling, so let's all wish her the best?
Judy.....tell hubby to drive carefully in those winds. RV's are so top heavy just the thought scares me!
Bud...I'm so happy your wife is home and comfortable. Please let us know how she's doing.
Take care everyone!
PS I think I'll eat something today....tummy isn't doing so well.
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I completely respect your choice of the path less traveled route and quality of life. Looking back on my husbands journey I wish we had done that and I too will chose that route should the time ever come.
Please come back and let us know what happens at the doc appt and how you're doing Marisa. My thoughts are with you.....you are a strong wonderful woman.
((hugs and prayers))
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My heart is breaking for you dear one. I'm sending extra prayers your way. Please let us know how your appt goes next week and what your treatment options will be.
We are all here for you anytime you need us.
((hugs and prayers))
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Lily, you never said what happened to your ankle...or did I miss it? Maybe you need to call the doc tomorrow and see if you can visit him?
I don't know about the weather here today cuz I haven't been outside at all. I did peek out the window and it looked okay. I've just been poking around FB learning my way around and trying to clean a bit. It's been so long since I cleaned all the dust bunnies are growing big time.
Otherwise all is okay since I had one of my "signs" today from my dear husband whom I miss terribly.
Tomorrow....don't know what I'll be doing. I guess I'll decide that when I get my rear out of bed.
((((HUGS)))
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This morning while cleaning out my makeup drawer I found THREE MORE SCREWS! There is no logical explanation for those being in my makeup drawer. (what woman would do that huh?) I hope that I continue to find many more because it's such a comfort for me to think that these are signs telling me everything is going to okay! Doesn't mean I'm not going to be sad and depressed because I miss him so much though. Which means no promises of not posting about my tears. BUT I'm so happy the "signs" are coming.
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My heart goes out to you and your family Karen. I also lost my husband a few weeks ago. I know everyone says that time heals and it gets easier. I guess we'll both just have to pray for strength. I'm glad you have such a large family that can help support you. I wish the best for your dad as well
((Prayers and Hugs)))
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Hi Bud! I'm another one that didn't know her surgery was coming up but I'm glad that all went well and she'll be home on Sunday. It's amazing these days how quickly people get to come home after surgery, but she'll be much happier in her own bed then some strange hospital with people poking her every hour.
Please let us know how her recovery is going and I too send prayers!
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Lily....sorry to hear about your ankle. I didn't know you hurt it, but take some time and rest please?
I'll be thinking of you
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Judy...Judy...Judy....We all thought you had a hangover from your celebration last nightwith all the wine. Glad to hear you're having a good time and we'll see ya soon darlin! Take care!
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"RandyW"]Whiskey for my pup and a Ying ling for ME and a TOAST TO JUDY For her great news yesterday!!!!
What is a Ying ling?
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"Kasey"]
Kasey
PS: Where the heck is La La Land
??????????La La Land is my state of mind most of the time!
Thanks for the advice, and yes the tears have been flowing all day. -
Let me pull up a chair and join all of you at the bar also! I'll have a Miller Lite please....make it a pitcher! LOL
Yes, it does appear that Judy might have had too much wine last night huh ? Hopefully she'll be around soon. Perhaps after a few aspirin!
It's windy here today. Even a bit on the cool side, but it's early so maybe it will warm up some.
My wonderful son cooked dinner for me last night. Isn't that sweet? He's always been a pretty good cook although cleaning up afterward is always my job. I don't usually mind unless it's grease!!!!! I hate that!
Well, I'm off to FB now so I can try to catch up with Ann's rating. Catching up with Randy though will take years. I don't know how the guy does it!
Have a good day everyone!
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Keeping busy isn't working for me today. I know people tell me to keep myself going with different things, but today it didn't work too well. Perhaps I choose the wrong activities. I started by cleaning out the pantry at 4am this morning. During the last couple of months my husband only wanted to eat scrambled eggs, oatmeal, canned peaches and ensure. My pantry was full of those things and the tears started to flow and I stopped. Then I looked in the backyard and noticed my rose bushes need trimming. So, off I went to do that...again the memories came. My husband hated it when the rose petals would blow into the swimming pool. It's been windy here and they were all over the backyard and also in the pool....here come the tears again. Everywhere I go and everything I do is reminding me of him and I'm falling back into that dark place again.
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"Ann"]So beautiful, Lil. I truly know where you're coming from and I think I feel enough pain for the both of us right now!!!!
You can add me to that list as well.
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Now you can FINALLY celebrate Judy! Have that wonderful husband of yours take you out for a celebration dinner.
His favorite thing to do was eating steamed clams 
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When would your husband have time for pigeons when he's cooking for you? LOL