Hey Debi,
It's been awhile since we've comminicated and I am so happy to see you are a 5 year survivor!!!!! I have a year to go but the stress gets a little easier with time.
I totally understand the guilt, why did God take some of the wonderful people he took and leave me? I have no answers, obviously. I have often wondered that about my dad, such a great man, he lost his battle with this dreaded disease but I have made it four years and counting...I miss him so much.
I'm sooooo happy to hear you have let go of most of that fear and are enjoying life
Kathy
P.S. Sorry about the late response.....great picture, you LOOK happy and healthy!!