kimblanchard Posted July 14, 2003 Share Posted July 14, 2003 Hello friends, The weeks have past by and here it is...28 days since Mike left me and this world. I've been traveling. The first weekend I went camping with our friends that we always would go with....It was hard...periodically, but I still managed to have a good time. Then I flew to Michigan - visiting friends, RLF and cyber friends....When I get back home I'm going to Colorado for our church's youth group convention. I'm trying to pack as many "first's without Mike" into as short of time as possible. I'm determined to go through this grieving process and come out the other side as triumphant as Mike fought and died! I can hear Mike saying "Don't cry Sweetie" and that comforts me...it doesn't relieve the pain...but it does comfort. When I hurt, I hurt bad...so I cry and I weep and I wail. Then I laugh...or I talk...or I do something. The bad times still hurt, but the "okay" times are coming more frequent. Mike taught me a lot about dying with dignity and grace...but he taught me more about living. He taught me to accept that which we cannot change, to have the courage to change the things we can and have the wisdom to know the difference. I know there are things I can do to "help" myself through this process....but I also know I cannot CHANGE the process. I have to go through it. So - day by day, I plug along. Taking each moment and THANKING GOD Mike was in my life in the first place. Thanking God that I had 35 years to know this man. Thanking God that our children were raised, that he lived to see his grandchildren, etc. It's harder to grieve when you are just so doggone grateful for having him in the first place. Love and hugs, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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