missyk Posted August 16, 2005 Share Posted August 16, 2005 I know it has been a crappy beginning of the month on here...i spent alot of time sitting in front of this computer shedding tears...and wondering what kind of complication we would run into next with Mom with all of it going on here. So far, we're not dealing with anything unexpected and we're happy!! She goes today for the results of the MRI and CT's she had done in preparation for the next SRS and beginning the next rounds of taxol/carbo. I can't seem to find the anxiousness that normally follows knowing we're waiting for results. Is it that i've finally settled into this, is it that i'm not paying enough attention, or is it that, somewhere,i know it's going to be ok this time? I'm afraid to feel optimistic...like i'll "curse" something if i do. Silly, i know. But she's had about a month break from all the treatment and she's feeling and sounding better than in the midst of it all. The cough is still there (and the drs are still arguing about WHY it is) and the esophagus is still painfull, but her energy level is coming up a little bit which eases our minds a touch, too. She might begin the 5 hour chemo today, though she'd love to go in and get told she doesn't have to! (A dream i think most of you know well!) I just wanted to let you all know, the month isn't all bad...though i feel a little guilty in saying so. There are so many people i wish i could have sharing in some much needed breaks from the drugery of treatment and worries, even if for just a little bit. Peace, love, and prayers for all, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nikkala Posted August 16, 2005 Share Posted August 16, 2005 So glad to hear this Missy. Hope that upbeatness stays around. GREAT to hear some good news, thanks for sharing. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shineladysue Posted August 16, 2005 Share Posted August 16, 2005 Missy, You and your mom have my prayers for great scan results. Love, Sue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Don Wood Posted August 16, 2005 Share Posted August 16, 2005 Prayers for you and Mom. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kamataca Posted August 16, 2005 Share Posted August 16, 2005 I hate the waiting too. I hope you can enjoy some good news together! You're in my prayers. Kelly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nancy c Posted August 17, 2005 Share Posted August 17, 2005 Thinking of you and praying for the best. Hang in there. God bless,Nancy C Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kreed70 Posted August 17, 2005 Share Posted August 17, 2005 Missy, I know how you feel. A few weeks ago someone called this a roller coaster experience- how true!!! I am sitting here now shedding tears! Things are going well though- nothing specific to cry about just in general crying about the whole mess! HAPPY to hear that things are going well physically and emotionally! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Leslie221 Posted August 18, 2005 Share Posted August 18, 2005 Glad to know I'm not the only one who sometimes "fears" there will be a punishment for feeling too positive! See that doubt over there? Aim your big guns at it and FIRE! Fingers crossed for a good doctor visit for your mom. Leslie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Maryanne Posted August 18, 2005 Share Posted August 18, 2005 Don't ever feel guilty about bring good news here. We thrive on the positive results. That is what gives so many people hope. Good news like that of your moms. So glad for both of you. Good luck with the MRI and CT results. Maryanne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bunny Posted August 19, 2005 Share Posted August 19, 2005 I needed to hear all of that, miss Missy. so thank you. you all know I struggle with that optimism - under the guise of being 'realistic'. I think of you often, though I don't always have time to write the long, lovely messages we used to. on my end, I am feeling happy that mom is home from the hospital but pretty badly depleted. hopefully, the derailed vaca will happen soon. until then, posts like yours, quite literally, keep me going. do keep us posted on the scans. love and prayers to you, xoxo amie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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