daddyslittlegirl Posted March 11, 2007 Share Posted March 11, 2007 I just left my dad. Overall he looked pretty good. He began his radiation treatments on Tuesday. So far they haven't been too hard on him. He still has a bad cough and he is very weak. Sometimes it's hard for him to even get up. He has taken a few falls. We think some of this is caused by low blood preasure. It's killing me to watch him go through this and think about what it could be like in the future. I keep praying and praying for a miracle. I've looked in to some herbs and vitamins (Ernie thanks for the help) and his radiaologist says he could be a candidate for cyberknie. I've been calling the hospital in the area that does it for the past week and no one is calling me back! My family is worried that I'm surviving on what could be false hope, but it's the only thing that is keeping me going. I read some of your stories about how it is as the disease progresses and I just get so scared to think that c0uld happen to my dad. Every week my whole family is getting together at my parents house and the past 2 weeks he's made the comment that he doesn't want to get to the point where he needs someone to take care of him. He's also said that he has lived through things that most men would have died from. My dad has always been the back bone of our family and he feels it's his job to always take care of us. Therefore, he tries to stay strong and not show any concern. I don't even know what is going on in his mind. I think sometimes I may be living in denial still. I just want this thing to go away!! I feel so bad because back in October they told my dad he had to have a defibulator (I hope I spelled that right) put in. He didn't want to and we all begged him. Maybe he felt without it he could go one day quickly and with his pride and dignity. He has so much pride and dignity and that means so much to him. Now, look he's suffering from this. As long as I can remember every time he would go to the doctors there would be something else wrong and each time I think okay we'll get passed it and he'll be all better. I know he's got to go one day, but I just pray and pray that it's not from this. I'm sure most of this isn't making any sense because I'm really upset right now, but thanks for listening anyway. God Bless! p.s. please see post below for history. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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