nancy c

Hey Everyone-how are you all?? I'm am so sorry but with the wedding I have been swamped. My pilot son(Matt) justed fly back to his home an hour ago. So now I can tell everyone--Mike walked Nicole down the isle on her wedding day with his cane--went to the reception(had a little rest period between) and even danced the father/bride dance, and danced once with me!!! It was a miracle! Prayers do work! We had over 400 guests and when Mike and Nicole danced--he had his own cheering section!!! (clapping,screaming and alot of tears) Nicole was beautiful and the evening was perfect. Mike stayed for probably 2 hours at the reception then a friend took him back to the hotel.He went to bed and the next day we went home. He had a Dr's appt today and this morning he dressed himself--even down to his socks and shoes. Those of you who have been so very ill--know how much of an accomplishment that is.He is seeing the Dr. on a weekly basis now. I am praying for him to grow strong so we may take a cruise and just get away. Our three children are the best --they all pitched in-Shane(he's the oldest-he's 32) gave his dad a shower and dressed him the day of the wedding. That gave me a relief to do what I had to for Nicole and her big day. It was perefect!!! Thanks to all of you for your kinds words and encouragement. It truly is a gift to post at this site and vent.God bless all of you, Nancy C P.S.Mike also went to the rehersal and the dinner but did leave alittle early due to fatigue

Thanks to all of you-it is an emotional time for me right now. Having this site to vent is a heaven for me. God Bless,Nancy C

Oh thanks so much for the response. Yes, we are trying to do all those things. He still tires easily. He is sleeping now--He wants to go the the rehersal and the dinner tonite. We will see how he does, hopefully he can make both--but if he can't that's ok. Tomorrow is the big day and that is the one we are concerned about. Thanks,God bless,Nancy C

Curtis-you have every right to vent your feelings. This is fricking America!!! Hang is there. It will get better--some days just suck!! Good luck to you, and God bless you,Nancy C

Mary, your story brought tears to my eyes and made my heart feel warm.Your father truly sounds like a saint. Hang in there--don't give up hope. This site is such a stress relief for me. There are many people who care and have alot of info and encouragement to offer. Stay strong for your dad. God bless you and your family, Nancy C

Cindi,thanks-that does make me feel better. It is amazing someone can be so ill for over a week and then slowly make the turn around. I pray that is what he is doing. I'm glad to hear from you-since you experienced the extreme illness and the gradual uphill healing. God bless you and thank you, Nancy C

Thanks to all of you; this morning was better. He got up by himself and used his walker alittle--but felt confident without it. He is more alert. Appetite is improving slightly--but he is really drinking alot. Visiting nurses came in to check him but I had already helped bathe him. Physical therapy was here also. And they feel he is alittle stronger. He told Nicole today that he IS going to the rehersal dinner tomorrow nite.(we had already planned on someone sitting with him-didn't think he could go) Wedding is Saturday!! Maybe it will be a very happy day after all for me with Mike feeling better. god bless all of you,thank you,nancy c

Thanks to all of you-Peggy-thank you -he has had bone pain with all his chemos-his last Pet scan was in Nov and it didn't show involvement of the bones. But his left neck tumor has destroyed some of his collar bone. This last round of chemo he was getting hit him pretty hard since Feb,--receiving Tarceva and iv avastin. The Dr has said these last 7-10 days that the cancer progression can also have this effect on him--but his cat scan recently didn't show any spreading of his cancer? He was/is dehydrated and doesn't have an appetite. So I just pray that he can bounce back. He does pretty much sleep 24/7. I will have to be more positive. thanks all of you,you're wonderful. God bless,Nancy C

Pat-thanks so much. i do appreciate your thoughts and prayers. god bless,nancy c

Congrats to all of you who have quit; I wish my husband could have quit when was dx-but he didn't. Now he is so sick he barely smokes 4 cig. a day. It is very hard to quit--and all of you deserve a trophy!!!!! ghod bless,nancy c

I'm writing because I have to vent and have a question--Mike is still weak and today Dr ordered some medicine to increase his appetite. His sister came over(she saw him last time -last tuesday when he was admitted to the hospital) and his aunt(who hasn't seen him in 6 weeks) and they both left very upset and said he looks worse than he did in the hospital?? Is it because I see him daily--i think he looks alittle better than in the hospital and of course he is very weak --but he did get around alittle today without his walker. But his appetite is poor and he doesn't eat much--so I guess there may have been alittle weigh loss since last week. I think his aunt feels I shouldn't have restricted the visitors while he was in the hospital--but I didn't want 20 people tracking in and out of his room every fricking day. So that was a decision our kids and I made--a NO VISITORS sign was put on the door. He needed rest and I was hell bent on him getting it. Mike told me tonite he thinks he'll probably end up in a nursing home!! this upset me alot and I told him-it will not happen. That we are taking care of him until he gets better. But I have this unrealistic expectation of him getting back on his feet and hopefully enjoying the summer. Is this silly?? Has anyone ever been so ill and then bounced back? I am trying to blame his condition on the chemo--and I realize he has cancer--but could he go down hill that fast?? I need some hope-something positive--the wedding is Saturday and I'm afraid that is what he is waiting for. God I hope I'm wrong. Pray for us please, Nancy C.

I neither have no info for you but I pray everything will be o.k god bless,nancy c

Di that is great news--hang in there and start whipping this thing. Best of luck and keep positive. God bless,Nancy C

Andrea, I am praying for your family. I do pray everything goes well with your mother's surgery and she recovers quickly. God bless you and will take care of you, Nancy C.

thanks to all of you and your encouragement; it means alot to me. i don't know what i would without site to post. it is so very important to me.thanks,nancy c

maryanne, thank you so much for your words of encouragement; i needed that; i was depressed today; today was my first day home from work being a fulltime caregiver. he really can't do much for him self. he asked me to help him figure out how to take his meds tomorrow. he didn't realize i took tomorrow off too. and i won't go back until after the wedding-may 18th. he said he was glad -said he didn't feel safe being alone. poor thing--what a lifestyle change for him all within 2 weeks.i just keep encouraging him that he will get stronger. but i do worry that this may be as good as it gets. i pray not. god bless,nancy c

I am sory to hear about your difficulty with tarceva. my husband was on it-had no rash-just nausea and vomitting; but the combination of tarceva and avastin together put him in early liver failure according to his onc. and he was in the hospital for one week and i really felt he may die. god bless,nancy c

keeping your dad in my prayers--hope things are ok-god bless,nancy c

tina, my husband has the same thing; he had no symptons it just showed up on pet scan too; hopefully they will get some chemo to shrink it; Mike's have been stable-no increase in those lymph nodes.i guess we just sit and pray. god bless, nancy c

jen, i am still praying for you. i hope you are having a better day. god bless you,nancy c

hang in there and take care; don't give up--be strong --god will take care of you; and it's ok to cry--we all have to do it sometime. it cleanses our soul!! God bless,nancy c

Mike is home from hospital tonite-he got home about 6pm--he is weak-uses walker-still alittle shaky; Dr wanted to keep him one more nite--but he wanted to be at home. Dr even said maybe we could send him to rehab floor for physical therapy and to build his strenght--but he wanted out of the place!! actually they were very good to him; he is eating alittle better; but i don't understand why he isn't getting his strenght back???? We have visiting nurses come in 3x weekly for physical therapy and lab work. I am off tomorrow and may work wednesday-then off for the wedding thurs/friday-wedding is saturday. I don't think Mike can walk Nic down the isle without his walker-or may have to use a wheelchair--we'll wait and see. god bless,nancy c

Hello-my husband spent part of tues in the ER and then was admitted and is still in the hospital. So tell Karen I know what those dates are like!!! I think you guys(men) can be alittle stubborn??? But like you, my husband is getting better and feeling better. We do love our men don't we!! Take care of yourself!!!!! god bless, Nancy C p.s. I love your attitude and writing!!

becky, i am so glad your little grandbaby is doing much better. let's keep praying for him. give him lots of lovin for me. god bless,nancy c

oh cyndi-i do feel for you. you hang in there. it iwll get better. these roller coasters are exhausting aren't they???? be strong and god bless,nancy c