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Judy! Hey! I hav'nt been here in a long time. But, since you're not answering me, you left me no recourse but to try and track you down here and find out what's happening I read your post, Don't blame you for not bringing your PC into the hospital with you. Judy......I hope whatever is going on is "dealable" I just invented that You are in my thoughts so often, I only want things to be good with you. Stay positive, and move on. That's all any of us can do no matter what our circumstances are. (((((JUDY)))))) Give Stan a hug for me too. Love ya, Gail

Hi Barb! I havn't posted in quite a long time. I came on tonight because I was wondering how you and Bill are doing. Good to hear that he is back home. I honestly can't remember whether or not chemo was stopped when Hank had his blood clots. It happened twice, but I just don't remember what he was being given, or not, during those times. Anyway, because I am not around much, please never think that you are far from my thoughts. I think of you and Bill very often, and hope that things are stable. You were the first one to throw me a life line when I started this journey, I will always remember and be thankful for you and your help. Stay strong, and be well Barb. Love, Gail

Hi Barb, Just want to let you know I'm thinking of you and Bill. Hope Tarceva works great for him!!! Love, Gail

Hey there everybody, It's been a while since I last dropped in. I'm sorry for my long absence, but I have been sort of busy and trying to pull my life together and begin moving on. I'm doing alright, and I want all of you to know that you are never very far from my thoughts. I want you all to keep fighting, and keep winning. I am pulling for you!! Love, Gail

Hi Denise, So glad to hear that Tom is continuing to do so well!!! Gail

Hi Paul, This is really wonderful news at stage 1V. I am wishing you continued improvment!!!! Gail

Jeanie, Hi. I love to hear these success stories. This is wonderful news! May the good news keep coming for years to come. Gail

Hi to all of you and welcome. Sorry you're here though. I hav'nt been posting these days with any great regularity, but don't think that I'm not with you all and hoping you all have great success in your new journey's. You should all know and believe that there is hope, and that you are truly welcome here. There are many wonderful folks here happy to help in any way that they can. My best wishes, and hopes are with you all!!! Gail

Hi Barbara, Stay here. post, make new friends. You will find so much support, hope, and encouragement here. These are some GREAT people. They will help you through this. Once your treatment plan is laid out and you are actively treating this disease you will feel better. Wishing you great success, Gail

Hi there, Thank you so much for sharing your story. It really means a lot to me to see it, especially at this time. It has been just six weeks since my Hank passed away. I have been wondering, even at this early stage in my grieving what my new life will consist of, and who will I share it with. I am also 54. I have been thinking that it is not impossible, but improbable that I will ever find someone new to share my life with. After reading your story, I see that this might not be true. I do have to find myself again though. Who am I really? now that I am not who I was before this happened? I'm sure that in the coming days and months I will find out. Thank you very much posting this!!!!! Gail Congratulations on your wedding and new life!!! I wish you much happiness.

Hi everybody, Thought I'd drop in and just say hello. I feel guilty that I have not been posting with the same regularity as I was when Hank was still here. I want you all to know that it's not that I don't care. I'm still out here pulling for you all and wishing you success in your individual battles. I guess there are a few reasons that I hav'nt been posting very much. First, the urgency of the situation that Hank and I were in has now passed along with his passing, second, I'm am trying to remove myself from having lung cancer on my mind constantly. I hope you understand. Caring about people with this terrible disease and donating to Lungevity will be something that I will continue to do for the rest of my life. I am alternately doing OK, then not so OK. If I stay very busy, I seem to be able to keep plugging along. I find that the evenings here at home are the hardest. The old routine of having Hank come home from work, and eating dinner together, and being with each other is really missed. I had a major meltdown last Friday. Don't even know what brought it on. I just cried and cried. Did'nt know there was that much moisture in my head!!!! I really started to worry that I would never stop! Everything was wet by the time I did I have started a support group sponsored by hospice of NJ, although it's not much of a group, only 2 other members who did'nt show up for the first meeting I went to last week. I'm hoping that things will improve there. I am also seeing a social worker privately once a month. My friend Holli is due to move into a house around the corner from my house at the end of the month. That's going to be great!! It's just so lonely for me here now. I have also joined another online forum. It's called Widows too young. There are so many people out there just like myself, and I do find comfort there, as I did here from all of the caring people who share my situation. I am beginning to truly believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel for me. I can't see it yet, but I believe it's there. Anyway, I will be dropping in periodically to say hello, and be of support in any way that I can. All the best, Gail

Hi Christie, Just want to welcome you and wish you all the best. This is a wonderful group of supportive people here who know just what you are going through. Good luck with everything! Gail

Hey Denise, I'm sure Tom is going to put that weight back on. He's done so incredibly well through all of this, now that he's feeling better, You'll fatten him up!!!!! Both of you, keep up the good work! Gail

Hi Susan, Just wanted to welcome you, and wish you and your Mom all the best. I hope she tolerates her treatments well, and that she kicks lungs cancer *ss!!!! Gail

Hi there, Hope there are much better days ahead for your Mom. My thoughts and best wishes are with you, Gail

Hi Sarah, Don't know what to say..... so......(((((((HUG)))))))) Gail

Hi Maggie, Welcome to this community. I have also lost my guy Hank about a month ago, so I know what you're going through and how you're feeling. It's a very, very hard thing, but, understand that you are not alone, others here understand and feel your pain. We have to go on and move forward. Hope to get to know you better! All the best, Gail

Hi Lillee, Wish I knew words to say to make you feel better. There just are'nt any. I just want you to know your Dad is in the best hands, and eventually, it'll all be alright again. All the best, Gail

you're welcome Carole. Love ya, Gail

Hi Janette, Just before Hank was diagnosed this passed February we had scheduled a cruise. He had been sick with a cold that would'nt go away for weeks. I suggested that we cancel the trip. He said no, we're going. I'm thankful that we did. It was to be our last trip together, and I'm glad we did'nt miss it. I do agree with the precautions others are suggesting, but by all means, GO! ENJOY! All the best, Gail

Hi Diane, You have stumbled upon a wonderful community here, I can assure you of that. There is always someone here who is standing or has stood in your shoes. I hope you'll be feeling better soon. I think it's terrific that your doc says your doing well. I hope you'll hang around here and keep posting. I have found the support of this community very comforting. Wishing you all the best, Gail

Great news Tracy! Enjoy that vacation, you deserve it. Have a margarita for me!!! All the best, Gail

Hi Lynn, I agree with everyone else. When Hank and I were discussing what the situation would be when he came home I told him that we were going to need lots of help, and he agreed. You love Larry, Larry loves you. I'm sure he'll understand and accept this. Keep the communication going, be honest and tell him how you feel without trying to make him feel guilty. You have to stay strong Lynn. Don't try to do this alone. ((((Gail))))

Jan, Hope things get better really soon. Gal

Hi Lynn, I don't really know what to say... but I am really sorry that things are so tough. Hank really wanted to come home to die, and I really wanted for him to have his wish. It just did'nt turn out that way for him. As I was anticipating having him come home under hospice care, it was really freaking me out. I did'nt know if I would be able to handle all that I knew would be involved. Quite honestly, I did'nt want to do it. Hope that does'nt sound horrible, but those were my true feelings. But, I really wanted him to have what he wanted, and I would have done everything that would have been needed, had he come home. Now you find yourself in the position that I was dreading being put it. My heart bleeds for you, and I know that somehow you will find the strength to make it through this. The only way out of any situation, is going through. You will. I'm glad you have your daughter there to help. Are there any other family members that can lend a hand? Can you maybe hire a private caregiver to relieve you even one day a week? You need to search for all possible options and take advantage of them. You need to take a break and escape for a little while. I wish that I knew what to say, something that might truly help, but please know that I know your pain. (((((Gail)))))