hollyridge

Our son Michael went through the same thing when he was 16. It is also a long story but he was in the hospital addiction and recovery unit for 45 days and out patient daily care for 4 months after that. He is now 28. He had a very hard time and it was total hell for all of us. Please pm me if you want to talk. I have REALLY been there. Colleen

Last September I started WW and by Christmas I had lost 21 lbs. Since then I have gained back 8 lbs. Of my hard work. There is a lot of guilt associated with my weight loss and I have a huge amount to lose. Bill loved me the way I am but I need to love me a little more now so I will try again. I hope I am not too late to sign up. I don't mind being a straggler. Bill has been gone one week today. This is still just a nightmare but everyone keeps saying "take care of yourself" so maybe I will start. I need some sort of a focus or a future or a friend or something. I truly am totally lost. I stopped taking the medication the doctor gave me when Bill died and at least I am not foggy anymore but I feel so totally lost. I will try to get healthy for him.

Katie, my husband Bill died one week ago toay. He was diagnosed 21 months ago and was doing quite well. He worked until 6 weeks ago. You may just be having a set back but you need to be prepared in case things get worse. Do make that video and and take tons of pictures and record your children in any way possible with their grandpa. Our grandchildren are 7, 4, 2, and 1. Our two year old was here at the time he died and insisted on seeing Papa and giving him a kiss before he went to heaven. They all came to Bill's funeral and cried along with the rest of us. The little ones will remember him through pictures and the older ones will have vivid memories. Keep a positive attitude right now and build your own "future" for them with your dad. It will make all of you feel good even right now while he is struggling with some issues and trying to get better. Have courage and hope and the children will always know their grandpa as long as he lives in your heart.

Our dear sweet Bill, the most loving man in the world was laid to rest yesterday. His visitation and funeral were exactly the way he planned and more beautiful than I imagined. Our children and grandchildren carried roses to the altar for him during the funeral Mass and two choirs combined to create the most gorgeous music performing specifically the songs he had requested. So many people loved him and admired him and they just kept flowing in to the funeral home to tell us what a wonderful man he was. We were always so very proud of him but that night we were bursting at the seams with pride. He touched so many, many peoples lives and made everyone laugh. On the ride to the cemetery our seven year old grandson was amazed that the line of cars following the limousines was so long that he could not see the end. All of the grandkids were excited to see all of the people who came to tell us how much Papa was loved. I am frightened to stay alone in the house so friends and family are taking turns being with me. They gave me some medication to help me get through the last few days but now I want to feel everything. I want to feel the intensity of the pain and sorrow that his passing has brought for all of us. I want the world to know that nothing will ever be the same again. Our kids are being very strong about this and I put on a happy face for the grandkids but when we are alone the sorrow is almost unbearable. We will never get over this. Bill sweetie, I am here and I miss you so much I can hardly breathe. That is all I am doing. . .breathing. I feel like I have died also. I am so very proud of you as I have always been. I wore the black suit and black hat and black gloves for the funeral just like you wanted. I tried to make sure everything was perfect for you. The gardenia you had Patti get me is just gorgeous. The scent is filling the house. You thought of everything and I didn't even realize you were ready to go. I'm sorry I missed the signs. It just all happened too quickly. I am trying to be strong and I am trying to be brave. I am trying to convince my broken heart to keep beating. I will hold my head up and take it one day at a time. Please keep me in your prayers sweetheart. I am not good at this. I love you and I miss you and I long for the day when you will hold me once again. You are the best husband and father and grandpa and papa in the world. You are my perfect love. Colleen

I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I know how sad and painful this is for you. Please pm me if you need to talk. God bless

Please read my post in "general" section . I lost my sweet husband last night and I cannot manage to write this again. Colleen

Last night at 8:39pm my sweet husband Bill lost his battle with this distgusting and hateful disease. Our three kids and our four grandchildren are just devasted. He was out and about on Monday and then started to get very tired and yesterday morning he was very confused and disoriented and unable to stay awake. We had not even arranged for hospice yet. He had never been hospitalized and the night before he had all of the family over and had pizza and laughed and talked with them. We are all in shock. I thought I was going to go to get my hair coloured today and instead I am going to the funeral home to make his arrangements. He started slipping away at about 4:00pm and we called hospice and they came to sign him up. We never accomplished that. I spent the day and night lying in bed beside him cradling him in my arms and telling him how happy he made us and how much we loved him. His breathing slowed and within a few minutes he relaxed and melted into my arms and breathed his final breath. I want the world to know that a wonderful and caring and beautiful and humble and brilliant loving husband, father, and Papa has been taken from us and we will never be the same. Bill, I can feel you. I know you are here. Please hold me tight. The world is crashing around me. I miss you so much baby. Colleen

Sandy, please, please try to include our picture with the group. Last night at 8:39 PM my dear sweet husband lost his very brave 21 month battle with SCLC. I am numb and sick but I wanted to add us to the list please. Colleen

I am so sorry you are having to go through this. Listen to you Dad. He is telling you that he is strong and he wants you to hang in there. This is a horrible disease and it shows no favoritism to anyone. You are so lucky to have a father who is such a wonderful example to you and your family. I know it is so hard to understand why such a wonderful person would have to suffer an illness like this. There is no answer. There is only faith and hope and trust in the Almighty. God bless you and your father. I will pray for your sadness to turn to hope and strength.

Berissa, my prayers are with you. I am glad you are getting the help the hospital can provide. Please keep us posted.

I'm sorry. I was not logged in. Is is me, holly.

Congratulations! I pray for another year and another and another for us all.

I am a little confused. I thought you could not seek any further treatment if you had hospice care. I thought it could only be palliative and not curative. I am saying prayers all of the time for all of you.

I am so sorry for your loss.

I am so very sorry. I will pray for your dad and for you.

You go girl!!!!!! That makes us feel good too. Congratulations!

Good luck. A break would be nice but it is good that he watches you so closely.

I am so very sorry. He will be missed very much. God be with you all.

My husband has finished radiation for brain mets a week ago but yesterday and today he has had a couple of very serious bouts of confusion. Today we were driving in the car and he opened the door while I was going 45 mph and said he had to do it because it would lock the door properly. He seems perfectly normal for a long time but every once in a while he does something like this. Anyone have any similar experience? The docs were very certain that the radiation would work.

Is there someone, anyone you can consult with for another opinion? This disease is hell but it is worth the fight till the very end. My husband almost died in December and they tried radiation and it worked when the chemo could not control the tumors. I am praying. It was just a fluke that we sought the opinion from the radiologist onc.

I am so sorry. You are in our prayers.

Happy, happy, happy! Wonderful news.

I am so very sorry that you have to go through this. I cannot imagine the fear you must be feeling but do not lose hope. There is always hope and this time could be different. My prayers are for your strength and peace.

How wonderful! It is a thrill to hear happy news! Go Dave!

My husband was getting very confused and they did find brain mets. After just a few radiation treatments he started to improve. Good luck