paddy Posted August 25, 2006 Share Posted August 25, 2006 Hello Friends, I wondered if any one else here experiences what I call the "Weekend wipe-out?" During the week I keep the blahs away by keeping very busy. I volunteer at the local senior centre, go out with friends, get into my art or sewing, read or keep up with my friends and relations be email. Sometimes I see my daughter and her family, however, like most modern families, they seem to have a busy life with kids activities and work etc. I am not too keen on driving and my sense of direction is poor,( to say the least,) however, I am starting to find my way around in my relatively new surroundings. Anyway, from Monday to Thursday, I manage to keep myself from "thinking" of my loss and all the terrible things that happened. I even try to keep the happy memories away as they are bitter-sweet too. However as soon as Friday comes a wave of sadness wells up and up inside me and by the time Saturday morning comes I feel completely "wiped out". I really wish I could sleep the weekend away and wake up on Monday morning ready to go again. I don't "want" to paint, sew, bake read or drive anywhere. I just want to have my husband here with me! I force myself to go to Church on Sunday, not that I don't love to go to church, (especially as I see my grand-kids there,) but it's the coming home alone that I can't bear. After 40 years of living with dearest friend and husband, I feel as if I am only half-a-person. He was so sweet and funny and we used to talk and laugh a lot together. There is very little laughter in this house anymore, although my little dog does his best to amuse me and if he could talk he would! I wonder how many widows out there are feeling this way right now? I wish I knew some in this neigbourhood. We could perhaps start a sort of friendship club to keep each other company.Perhaps that would be an idea to persue. Anway, excuse me for "bleating" but I really felt the need to express my feeling to "someone" and what better "someone's" than my LC friends! Love to you all, Paddy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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