bam451 Posted April 17, 2007 Share Posted April 17, 2007 I've posted on here before about my mom's story. Although I don't post much, I am on here every day reading the wonderful support all of you provide. I do not think I would have made it this far and long if it wasn't for all of you. My mom finished about 4 weeks ago her 38 rounds of radiation and chemo. She was supposed to have them at the same time but her platelets were too low. She ended up only have two rounds of chemo during that process. Previous to radiation, she had 8 rounds of chemo (taxol, avastin and carboplatin) The last few weeks my mom has been in a lot of pain. My mom has a very high tolerance to pain and when she went on pain meds, I knew that it was bad. She went to the doctor last Friday and they thought that she had a broken rib. A CT scan from December showed that she already had a healing fractured rib. Recently she coughted or sneezed very suddenly and went into extreme pain. The doctor assumed that she had a broken rib again but wanted her to go for another CT scan and then a bone scan. She has never had a bone scan before. Meanwhile my mom is in continued pain. She is having a harder time working. She has managed to work full time up til now. She took her tests, but the doctor did not want to see her until May 4th. She called him yesterday because she felt in her gut that something was wrong. The doctor called last night around 9pm and confirmed her worries. The cancer has spread to one of her ribs. I'm allowing myself a day to have a pity party and then I know we have to put on our strong faces and fight like hell some more. She goes back to the radiologist today and they plan to start more radiation and them more chemo. I know it sounds silly, but I was really hoping for her to feel better this summer, at least for a while. I just miss her. She's my best friend and I miss all the fun we used to have. We still have fun, but it's not the same. Her hair was finally growing back and we thought in a few more weeks, she could go with out it. I know that in the long run it doesnt matter but I feel so bad for her. And the feeling of "WHY ME?" rages through my body all over again. Last night I felt like crap. I'm totally stressing out. I've been feeling pressure in my chest, I'm feeling very anxious and on top of it my blood pressure has been rising. I went to the doctor and he said I'm trying to take on too much. But how can I not. I'm an only child and this is my mom. She's fighting for her life, I want to be here every step of the way. Life just sucks all over again. He prescribed an antianxiety medication. But my mom is a firm believer it not taking medicine unless I really need it. I cannot tell her about this as it will only worry her. SO the one person I've always turned to, I can't. Although I find it very funny that I'm getting anxious over anxiety medication. = ) If anybody else has had their cancer spread to their rib and has any thoughts they'd like to share, I'd appreciate it. Thanks for listening.. I know it's long. Sometimes it feels good to vent. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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