Andrea,
I love the posts that I see here...don't focus on the numbers...instead focus on keeping yourself healthy, and calm. I have two kids, but don't know about the numbers that you wrote about. I do know that miracles happen EVERY SINGLE DAY, and because of that we can never, ever, ever, lose hope. God bless you Andrea...just think, no matter what, you have a little life in you, and that in itself is a gift from God!!!