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Nick, That was a very good point. I've been thinking about seeing a therapist (some of suggested it to me) and that may have convinced me too.

Adrian, I'm so sorry for your set back. I know how it feels to continuasly get bad news. I pray that it turns around for you real soon and that goods news is in your future. Hang in there and just try to take it one step at a time.

What a beautiful story and well put! I know how much this whole disease consumes your life. I'm so glad you found some great times. I pray for many many more for you and Bill.

I am so sorry for all of your losses. I know that I can't make 2007 end quickly, but I can certainly pray that it gets better for you. Take care.

Thank you for that. I just called my mom a little while ago. She sounded upset with me. My older sister doesn't call me anymore. All I do is try to bring hope to everyone. I don't unerstand what is wrong with that. I welcome any hope I can get (that's one reason why I'm here). Then, if I cry or get upset I'm criticized and told to "get a grip". I realize I'm not the same person use to be, but can you blame me?

I hear what you are saying, but for me I'm having a difficult time as it is even though I have hope. Imagine if I didn't have hope. I wouldn't be able to enjoy whatever time I do have left with my dad. I'd rather have a worse time dealing with it later than now. I actually got really upset at my mom tonight. You see she's trying to keep him from doing things like cutting the grass (they have a riding lawn mower). I told her to let him do what he feels he can. To me, it is better for him to keep pushing himself. My dad has soooo much pride that he needs that. So he gets tired. He knows the consequences and he's a grown man and can make those decissions himself. He doesn't need anyone nagging him. Then, she made a commet that this is a heck of a way to "finish up." WHAT??? I told her I want to stay positive and have hope and I don't want to hear anything like that. She said she has hope to. That didn't sound like hope to me. Then she makes comments about my long face. I ask you, when people make comments like I've been hearing, how am I suppose to smile?

I don't have any experience with the drug combo, but I do have many prayers for you and your mom. Please try to hang in there and be positive. Your mom very well could be in that 10%.

I'm sorry you two are going through this. I really pray that the radiation gives him fast relief.

Adrian, I'll drink to that! Cheers!!!

You know the saying, "April showers bring May flowers?" Well, your May flowers have brought showers to my eyes. I hope you have already picked out what kind of flowers you are going to plant next year, and the year after that, and after that, and so on.

I am certainly praying for all those families effected by this devastation.

Thanks for the info. I set the DVR!

Thank you, Susan. You are right I can't control them and how they deal with things. I just try to bite my tongue and focus on my dad (and not them). I know the last thing my dad would want is his family at odds over this. So I'm going to do everything I can to prevent that and still try to keep him positive. thanks again for your opinion. It really helps to hear how what someone else thinks of the situation.

I haven't seen a threrapist yet, but I've been considering it. Sometimes I feel I'm losing it and I can't afford to do that because I have 2 small children that need me. I'm sorry to hear they haven't been much help. I do agree with you though that there really isn't anything anyone can say that will make it better. That's why I have chosen not to tell most of my friends about it. I wil tell you though my biggest help comes from the people here. I get so much hope from the people here and that really helps. I don't know about you, but staying positive (instead of focusing on the negative) really helps me. I'm praying for you and your mom. Would you please keep us posted on if things get better with the therapist? It will help me decide if I should. Thanks, try to hang in there.

BTW: I changed the subject heading since it seems my topic of discussion has changed from what it was originally. I hope that's okay. thanks again for listening to me venting.

see my dad has never really been one to talk about what is on his mind. He especially has avoided discussing this with me because he knows what a difficult time I've been having and I think he's trying to protect me. However, lately he has been discussing more things with me and I think it's because I give him hope. I just wish everyone else was doing the same. I feel my mom shouldn't use words like "when" and use words like "if". I just keep telling him that NO ONE knows what is going to happend and let's just take things one step at a time. I havn't really pushed him to do anything. Just like I told him, I will continue to share with him what I learn and make suggestions and he can tell me know if he wants. I just feel that others in my family should share some hope instead of writing him off. Thanks again.

Leslie, Thank you for sharing the update. I'm glad to hear the positive news. It also helps me. I told you before that my dad's situation sounds similar to your dad's. It's interesting to see the various opinions. My dad has 2 small nodules that he has begun 13 rounds of WBR for. I told my mom to ask about SRS. She said they wanted to do the WBR in case there are some "hidden" cells and because there is less likely recurrences. I was kind of concerned about WBR because I have read some negative things about it. However, Dr. West put some of those fears at ease. So I pray that both our dad's have much success with their treatment. Hang in there.

You know I feel he use to have hope (before his brain mets). He use to say things like, "I'm not going anywhere." Now, I understand he's been talking to my mom about things like, "when" I get worse and "I don't want hospice." I just keep tellling him success stories and remind him that he can beat this. I let him know this is a hurdle and they want him to do the WBR so it's less likely for recurrences. I haven't heard anyone in my family say anything positive. Even though I'm being criticized for "the time I spend on the computer," I have found so much hope here that I can share with my dad. I think my family thinks I'm living on false hope. Well, even if that's true, it's better than giving up. I'm not seeing a man who is ready to go anywhere and, as long as that is the case, I will keep pushing and reinforcing hope. We had a get together at my parents tonight (as we do every week). I overheard my sister's sil (whose dad died over 6 years ago from lc) say something to my other sister about having relief once it's over. My sister just agreed and showed no emotion whatsoever. Helloooo, my dad isn't gone, yet (and I pray he's not for a long time). I don't understand why it seems people are focusing more on when he's gone than on what can be done to keep him here. I mean it's not like he's in end stages or anything. He's still going through treatment and not doing too bad. The doctors have actually said they are surprised. That's encouraging. Maybe I'm wrong here, but I just don't feel like I am. Thanks for listening and giving your opinions. God Bless.

Peggy, I'm so sorry to hear of your mom's passing. I can't even imagine what you must be going through now with your brothers diagnoses. Please know I'm thinking about you and praying for you and your brother.

That is great news. I agree with you, this site is heaven sent and the people here are wonderful! I'm praying that your mom makes continued progress. BTW, I live in Maryland (where your mom is going to visit) and my parents live in WV. What parts? Take Care!

Thank you so much for the prayers and replies. My dad had a talk with me yesterday to let me know that he is done after these rounds of radiation. He said he's not worried about anything and not to worry about him. IMPOSSIBLE! I'm so scared. I use to think he really had a possitive attitude (which gave me hope), now I think he's losing this. How do I make him understand that he has hit a bump in the road, but not the end? My mom keeps saying she wants to find out how much time he's going to have. That doesn't demonstrate hope or being positive (like we ALL need to be). It really upsets me that she is insisting on it. I keep trying to tell her that NO doctor is GOD. Then she said her and my dad were discussing when this happens and that... NO, NO, NO! I feel she should be telling him we are going to take one day at a time (his words) and not worry about what may or may NOT happen right now. Am I right? I really feel I'm starting to lose it. Thanks for listening.

I agree with Connie. Be thankful she has an aggressive onc. I feel my dad's is not aggressive enough. I pray she does well with whatever she decides to do.

Hi and Welcome. I'm praying your sister is responding well to her treatments. Please keep us posted.

You are such a thoughtful caring person. YOU have given us so much hope and insperation. God Bless you.

I am so sorry for everything you are going through. I know it's very tough. I do pray your mom is able to make it to the ocean one last time. I would try to take as much time off work as you can and spend with her. Try to hang in there.