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ofcourse, that is why we are here, I hope late is better than never!

Can this get to Shellie?? I am such a bad person for not being here the last week for you! My heart goes out to you and I know how hard it is! Big hugs from Scandanavia and I hope you know we are all here for you!!!!! Stephanie

Shellie! I am soooooo sorry it took me so long to read your post. but I am here for you. You can email me privately because I check it every day, at stepholivieri@hotmail.com !! BIG hugs, I am sooooo sorry you are also going through this. I hate cancer!!!! GGGRRRRRRRRRR. Please email if you need to vent or anything. I am here!! Steph

get him to a doctor, sorry and I don't want to scare you, but Mom had nose bleeds for a few weeks and never told us, and had a blood infection. Maybe they weren't related, but go see a doctor. Hugs and my thoughts are with you and your family.

Hi there, You all said it perfectly. It has been almost two months since Mom died and I feel like a nutcase. I pretend to be happy all the time, because I am in a new studio in a new city with a group of people who don't know me, then I feel like I have been run over by a truck and I can't even move. Last night I was watching this silly movie called Bogus with Haley Joel Osmo. . .whatever from the 6th sense, you know the kid, and anyhow His Mom dies at the beginning and then he makes up this friend to help him deal with it. Well I have seen this film before and nothing, but last night I was watching it and I satrted to bawl, not just tears, really crying. I was shaking, and today I have been out of sorts all day. It sucks!! Do any of you ever feel like it didn't happen? and then you remember and feel guilty for forgetting for a few seconds? Do you have the dreams of your loved one that are so real you can feel their touch and hear their voice perfectly? Do you feel alone when there are many people around? I hate this sooo much, and I am so manic. I think it was Nathlie that said that and that is it. My Dad (divorced from my Mom) read me this thing he got on "when a loved one dies" and he was telling me all the things people say that are wrong, and it made sense. Then also made sure that I knew that I will never get over this, but instead learn to accept it. How can I accept she is gone? So 9 days , 9 months, whatever. it sucks. Hang in there. and sorry I can't be more inspiring. Stephanie

Hey Ginny, So sorry for your loss. That sucks for sure. I wish I could give you some magic words of wisdom, but I don't have any. But I am sending you a big hug from Denmark. Stephanie

T Bone, Glad the pain is gettin gunder control, pain sucks. Hang in there. Thanks for the update.

Shellie, I am here for you even from far away. I will be thinking of you and Mom I am sure is watching over you right now and your Dad. HUGGLES

wish I could come, I love Michigan so much. Oh well, I am in Copenhagen, so I guess I won't make it. Have fun! and have some fun for me.

I know how you feel exactly with my Mom, >I knew it when she was here, but now feeling it more than ever. Hugs to you

happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you!

hi everyone, Copenhagen is amazing, but I am sad a lot about Mom. I have a couple people here I can lean on, or just to make me laugh when I am feeling sad, and that helps. The city is gorgeous and anyone is welcome to crash for a visit! I miss you all and the board so much. I am getting my own laptop at the beginning of July, then I will be back more often. Mig Dansk er meget gødt, no not really that good, but I am surviving, hahahahah cheers. Steph

Hi Peg, I canø't say I know exactly how you feel but my MOm passed way on March 27th and I still don't know how to do it. somedays I feel like I can't possibly go one with out her. I am lost without her. I feel like nothing I do matters anymore. I will have no one at my wedding, I have no one to see my accomplishmenst and I certainly don't know how to do this. It sucks and I feel for you and really wish none of us ever lost anyone to this evil disease, but I guess we just have to be here for each other and hope we can get through it together. Hang in there

Becky, what did I miss while being out of touch? hehehhe I miss you heaps, and everyone. Take care. and catch me up! Steph

Andrea, Sorry I am in Denmark, and not involved, but I want to be and I want to help you with all your are doing, for my Mom, and your Mom and everyone fighting, living with, or have lost to this terrible disease. Please email me directly at my hotmail account, stepholivieri@hotmail.com I think about it al lthe time and want to do something, especially since Mom died in March. I feel like I am helpless from so far. Big HUGS for all your spunk! Hope to hear from you soon. Steph

sorry folks been out of the loop, can someone email me and tell me about this?? I am in Denmark so I can't do it, but maybe I can support someone and I really want to be involved for Mom, HUGS stepholivieri@hotmail.com

sorry to hear about your Dad. My passed in March and it sucks, but I have been still talking to her and I have notes to her up on my mirror etc. They know we love them, I really believe that. Big hugs to you and your family.

Hello dear friends, I am sooooo sorry I haven't been around. Since Mom, Judy B passed I have moved to Copenhagen and have no had much access to the internet, but I promise you are all in my thoughts and I am working on something to help us all, you know for the cause. Just things are crazy!! Hugs to all my old pals, and know I care and to the newbies, welcome. Steph

Andrea, I can honestly say I know how you feel and I am sooo sorry! Big hugs from denmark!

hello all, I only have a few minutes, but I want you to know I am reading posts and I am here. I arrived yesterday and after breaking down on the airplane and crying int he loo for almost an hour I felt a little better, but today has been really hard as I miss Mom so much and can't tell her about anything that is happening to me here. I feel this huge void and it sucks!! My heart actually hurts and I can't stop it. I start work on Tuesday and so I feel that I will have more days like this. I miss her soooo much!!! I hate cancer!!! gggrrrrr hugs to all, Stephanie

That is great Connie!! BIG HUGS and I am sure Mom would be dancing around for you!! HUGS fra Copenahgen!!!

Dear Andrea! I am soooo sorry and I know exactly what you are going through, when I first heard that Mom was going into a hospice, (about 3 weeks ago) I was so devastated, and then she died that week (the 27th) and I still am in shock. I still want to ring her and talk to her, and it sucks. I won't lie to you, it is sooo hard, but I am here for you. I am in Denmark but will be checking my email. I hope you get to spend some time with her, and tell her you love her. My mom wasn't really concious when I got to the hospital but I styed with her all night and made jokes about things talked about 24 and american idol etc and then I toldher how much I was going to miss her, but I didn't cry that much in front of her, because I wante dher toknow it was alright for her to go if she needed to. It was sooo hard, but she squeezed my hand a coule of times and the she woke up pulled me towards her and then said she loved me, and that was the last thing she said. I can tell you and your Mom are also very close, and I wish you weren't going through this and I wish I didn't but we can only deal with what is happening, niot what we wish wasn't. hospice is great care and you'll see that. BIG HUGS, Stephanie

it is a good idea for sure! I wish I was still going to be in LA, but I will try to help from Denmark!!! and also try to get some Hollywood types involved. Thanks Andrea!

Thank you everyone !! Thank you for donating and thank you Rick for putting her photo up! You guys are the best, My heart is breaking, but I knwo Mom would be happy about all your help. Thank you. Stephanie

Hi friends, I will be off line for about a week as I am going to be moving to Denmark this week and without my personal computer with me, I probably won't be able to get online until I find an internet cafe in Copenhagen, but it is a holiday weekend (I arrive Thursday night) and so all the cafes may be closed. I just didn't want anyone to think that now that Mom has passed that I no longer care, it is just bad timing. You all are very important to me and were to Mom, so I promise I will stay active, I will just be off this week, Thanks for all your support and kind words about Mom, she would have been happy to see them. Big Hugs, Stephanie