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Dear Denise, I am saying prayers for you're Mom's sucessful surgery and recovery. God Bless, Jane

Connie, I was not being critical of the people that put together the book. I was mearly saying I was dissapointed and didnt want others to be. I think I am old enough to know that to err is human! Just wondering ... are you volunteering?? God Bless, Jane

I plan to submit some again and hope to see some of mine in it God bless, Jane

Andrea, I was dissapointed that I sent several recipes in for the last book and was told everyone that sent in recipes would have them in the book. My Brother's picture was in it which was most important to me. I did post after I recieved the book and said there was nothing in the book from me and no one acknowledged my post. My concern is that if the same thing is said for this book, that it is made sure that everyone that sends in a recipee or several as I did at least one was chosen and put in as promised. God Bless, Jane

I am so sorry for you're loss. You're brother sounds amazing! You were all lucky to have him and he all of you. You have a wonderful attitude and insight and it helped me just to read you're post. I also lost my Brother in 2004 at the age of 46 and I as you know we will see them again but we will always miss them here on Earth. God Bless and comfort to you're family, Jane

Dear Randy, You're love continues as does her's/ You're presence here is appreciated and needed very much!! Someday you will join Deb and be eternally together! I am praying things become easier for you. God Bless, Jane

Dear Jenn, My heart breaks for you and you're family!! It is so very hard to watch a loved one suffer. I lost my Brother to stage 4 lc at the age of 46. I do know how hard it is for you. Please keep coming here and venting, talking what ever you need to do. We are here to support one another. I feel you're frustration and pain. I am praying for you all God Bless, Jane

Prayers being sent up. God Bless, Jane

Dear Melinda, I am so sorry to read this new news. I am praying that she and Ned can restore their relationship with this new drug she is on. Damn Cancer!!! God Bless you both, Jane

I am also so very sorry for you're loss. You are in my prayers. God Bless You, Jane

AWESOME NEWS Don!!!!!! God bless you both, Jane

Cindy, I think it was a great poem also. I do hope hanging it up though wont put people off who know not what to say and then they say nothing. I have to say there have been times here sitting at the keyboard reading of a recent death and trying to respond that I honestly just sat here looking at the blank space not knowing what to say. Sometimes I have had to leave the post and not been able to reply until later. Sometimes I have had a problem typing even one word. It is so hard to convey you're feelings for the person and not being able to open you're arms and hug them and cry with them or let them cry and try to sooth them. I know the things we say are from our hearts and meant to help the person but I also know sometimes on this side they sound so empty. I am also sure they do on that side too. My heart aches for the person that has lost their loved one and I do know what it feels like. I also know no one knows you're pain or where you are in it. Something I always remember was thinking to myself when I have lost loved ones was "What do I do with the sadness and pain?" I knew I may be taking things harder than others but it was my way to grieve and in my time frame. Some thought I had grieved long enough and I said Grieving is different for everyone and I have this overwhelming sadness I dont know what to do with!! In time I began to heal and it was a long time but it was me personally who had to get through it! I do try to support and help in some way to the people here that are grieving or are going through their struggles with this journey and it is a fine line sometimes to know what to say. I will say this to all, I care, I hurt for you and I do hope I say the right things to you. You are all in my prayers and that is my way of acknowledging you and trying to help you. God Bless you all, Jane

I have read final gifts while my Brother was sick and it helped me so much! Anyone that has not read this book, do you're self a favor and get the book! I bought a few copies and sent one to my Mother and another Brother and Sister to have. I wouldnt give up my copy!! Thanks for letting people know about this awesome book! God Bless you, Jane

Dearest peggy, I love you! You are a remarkable woman!! I have always admired you're strength and you're support here to everyone that has needed it. I would love to be a part of that support system and if you would like to talk sometime please PM me with you're phone # and a good time to call you. I will always be here for you my sweet friend. God bless you always, Jane

Dear Carleen, As sad as you're post is I am so happy to hear from you. I also think working is good for you. It gives you something you have to do. Listen to Peggy and she has really explained the stages of grief to you. How long it takes to get through each stage is different for everyone. I know being here was because of my Brother but that was so very traumatic for me and was like losing a Son, Brother and best friend all at the same time. I was totaled with grief from the time he was dx until long after he passed away. I am okay now. Yes, I have a sad place in my heart for him and I also have a place that I bring back memories and smile and just look up towards Heaven and tell him I love him. You will get to this stage but it will take a long time. You're promise to Keith keeps us all very hopeful that you will be okay as we know you will honor you're promise to him. We also know that you are in significant pain and you're life has been turned upside down. We love you Carleen and pray for you all the time. God Bless you Sweetheart, Jane

Thank you so much Peggy for letting us know that Carleen is alright and taking a few steps. I am also so relieved her Mom is staying with her. She has a long road but is a super trong woman and she will get through this. My heart just breaks for her!! God bless you Peggy, Jane

Dear Carleen, I am praying for you and you're dear family to help you through yet another loss. God Bless you, Jane

Dear Carleen, I was so saddened to read you're post. Please, Please get some help asap!! We will always be here for you but that is just not enough right now. I am praying for you . God Bless you Carleen, Jane

Dear Carleen, I am 52 yrs old now but when I was 28 yrs old, 10 years married and had 2 Sons together , one that was only 8 months old I became a widow quite suddenly. My husband was 29 and killed in a car accident. I had always thought I could never live if anything ever happened to my husband or children. It was the first and only time I questioned God. I could not understand why he would take a husband and Father of two sons at the tender age of 29!! I came to believe God does not take people but is there to welcome them to heaven and eternal life. A life without pain, illness or anything negative in it. I found a way to live as a widow with 2 Sons one day at a time and somewhere along the way I learned to smile again and remember my husband without tears. You will too. I know that is almost impossible to believe but time does heal all wounds. I have always read anything you have written and have followed you're journey with you. I was hopeful and I prayed all the time for you two. All prayers are answered but maybe not when you want them to be or how you want them to be but they are all answered. It is something we dont understand in this lifetime but will know all the answers when we join the Lord in eternal paradise. Keith knows all these answers now. You have always been a woman of faith and right now you're sorrow is so intense that you have lost some faith but you will regain it again. I do pray that the pregnancy is viable and you have a child by you're beloved Keith. The stress may just be too much right now though and what ever happens is part of God's plan. There is a reason for everything Carleen and I know how much you want those answers as do we all but our time on this Earth is short and we will know all the answers and that will be for eternity. Can you just imagine an eternal life with Keith and no worries and no illness? That is how it will be Carleen. I believe this with all my heart and I know you will come to the day that you do too. I love you Carleen and I hurt for you. I know you are going through the hardest thing you have ever been through and I only wish I could take some of that pain and sorrow from you. Look to God Sweetie and let him help you through this. PM me if you would like to talk further. We will always be here for you. God Bless and keep you, Jane

I am so very very sorry Carleen! My heart breaks for you. Be comforted in knowing his fight is over and he is in Heaven, happy and healthy again. He will always be with you Carleen. You're love is proof of that. I pray for you're comfort and strength. We all love you here Carleen as we do Keith too. God Bless you Sweetheart. Jane

How AWESOME You are 2 truly honerable people to be chosen and I am so very proud to know you even if it is only through a message board!!!! You deserve it sooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God Bless You Both and thank you for all you have given each and every one of us needing this board!! Love, Jane

Dear Carleen and Keith, I have followed you're journey for a long time now and the love between you two is awesome. I feel you're rage, you're fear and you're questions with God. Why can't it be a fairy tale love for you both to live long fullfilling lives filled with all the things you love? The facts are that No one on Earth has the answers and my belief is God does and we will all know and understand in God's time which will also be right for you. Keith and you will never be seperated, you're love will always remain strong. I believe you will spend eternity together which is a very very long time. These are my beliefs Carleen and I know you have a wonderful faith in God. I am sure you are angry and full of rage as I would be also. That does not take away you're faith. Stand strong and fight as long as you possibly can. Don't let any DR. take you're hopes and dreams away. If you crumble and fall now you may miss that one trial that could come you're way, you could miss days spent in love and enjoying eachother and spend them in tears. I have loved you both for a long time and have always kept you in my prayers as I will continue to do. As hard as it is ... Please stand strong against this beast and do and be everything you can. The support you have here is enourmous and it is all filled with love and hope for the both of you always. God Bless you both and love, Jane

Thank you Don for keeping us updated on our precious Terri. My prayers are that she go painlessly and peacefully to Heaven and that Al and the rest of her family find strength in the days, months and years to come. God Bless you all, Jane

Dear Katie and Rick, Thank you so much for you're commitment to this site and working so hard to get things straightened out and up again. I can only imagine how frustrating it was fir you both! Thank you also Katie and Peggy for the e mail updates on what was happening!! God Bless you , Jane

Dear Carleen, You and Keith remain in my prayers. God Bless you both, Jane