Hugs received and returned. Thank you all so much. I know when I come here and I have a total meltdown and the tears just won't stop that you guys will understand. The entire cancer process as well as the grieving process is such an emotional roller coaster. One day I think I am doing better and then out of the blue I get hit with a thought, a memory, a smell, a certain date etc. and the pain is so intense and the grief becomes almost more than I can bear.
It seems that at 5 months I have made almost no progress. Things still sit much like they were, I still have all of Mike's things, I am still working through my own health issues, I still have no income, many bills and I still don't know where I am headed in the future. I have many house repairs to be done etc etc... It can all be so overwhelming and on top of it to have lost the love of my life who was with me for nearly 36 years .... It's hard, really hard. I appreciate all of you being there and I will try to be there for you. My heart and my prayers go out to each and every one of you. This is a rough road we travel and we really need each other here.
Love and Prayers,
Sue